I feel stupid ( Read more... )

That one moment, it felt like dancing through hard-falling rain that beat the concrete fierce as a heartbeat. It felt like forgiveness. I stood out there barefoot on the wet grass, feeling almost naked, but knowing I was strong ( Read more... )

I'm talking to Amanda right now.
I think things are getting better.

My first instinct was right. It all hurt so much at first, but I think I'm going to be okay.

I hate to say it, but I just have to. I'm not sure why, but I feel like a hypocrite. Everyone says what happened with Zach (the one from MS) wasn't my fault, and I know they're right; but for some reason right now, the way he hurt me still has me kind of afraid. Shane is the sweetest, most caring, honest, loyal and overall amazing person I have ( Read more... )

The most important thing I learned today is to not be afraid. It takes courage to love. I can't keep scaring myself with whether or not I'll lose him. One of the first things he told me was that I had nothing to worry about. He is forever.

Today was Camille's 16th birthday. I was at her party in her grandma's apartment for most of the day. It was great. The apartment looked beautiful, and the lighting hit everything perfectly, and the food was delicious. It felt really good being there, and spending the day with Cam's family. The first few hours of the party were kind of quite and ( Read more... )