I might seriously be the worlds best procrastinator (example A: my presence here). I also am fairly certain that these papers are the true reason that I joined an online dating community (example B: ONLINE DATING). I've surfed the same three websites for the last 72 hours straight, knowing full well that there isn't anything for me on them (example ( Read more... )

Dear Internet ( Read more... )

I don't know why I stopped using LiveJournal. This is the only website that allows me to express how I am feeling in a non-superficial or altered way. Most of the more personal entries are private or friends only, but as always exactly how I feel at the time. I also don't feel too guilting because no one uses this anymore; so if you're here, it's ( Read more... )

My mind blurs reality suggesting that lust can replace love, making liars look like saints. I hate the way that unissued love deteriorates the mind.

It has been a year. It feels like yesterday. I am not handling this well.

I'm still missing you guys but at least Berlin isn't as miserable as Venice was. I like it here but it's still not as good as the Balkans were. I have only got five or so more cities to go. I actually have more interesting stories to tell- and more interesting details to previously told stories but I haven't had computer access. I have wifi on my ( Read more... )

I'm so incredibly massively overwhelmingly screwed. I can't do this anymore. Found more work that I should be doing. 4 days left. Totally screwed. Writers block. I don't know the material. Aren't I too old to fail at community college? Why can't I finish this? What ever happened to "A" for effort?

everything is wrong.

...this moment is no different than any other moment. This stagnant place that I'm in is not caused by fate or some greater cosmic destiny. There is a liar inside of me that tells me daily that I'm am a product of circumstance and someday things will get better. Someday. Some-day. One day. Eventually. Why do I want myself to wait? Do I think that ( Read more... )

I've been sick to my stomach for weeks now. I can't seem to make anything work. I hope I can finish school. I hope I can find health insurance.