well..today wasn't really all that bad. i'm still really worried about this six weeks. i have to bring up my spanish grade. it's a must. lol ( Read more... )

friday was fun. marcos, travis(marcos' friend), and matt(marcos' brother) came over and hung out with yvette and me. we had fun. we watched donnie darko. i love that movie. i think yvette and i were the only ones that've seen it. travis said it was a good movie. hehe ( Read more... )

i would update but i'm tired. so..i had a good night last night, and a good night tonight. mucho fun.

i just got back from the doctor. it was kinda awkward at first. she asked me if i was to rate my depression on a scale of one to ten how would i rate it...i told her an eight. she said 'so it's pretty serious.' i told yea. we talked about what stresses me out, triggers my depression, my mood swings, and my anger. then she brought my mom in and we ( Read more... )

my mom just picked me up from school. i'm going to the doctor today. i'm nervous. my mom asked me if i was worried. i told her no, but i am. she said the worst she could say is that i'm crazy like the rest of my family ( Read more... )

i wrote something, but i don't like it one bit. i'm still missing kathleen. i wish she would call me or something.

but umm..school again tomorrow. i like our day off today. i didn't do anything though.

i'm going to the doctor sometime this week. i'm kinda scared.

hehe..i'm talking to becca. fun fun. i love becca. she's the greatest.

yesterday i didn't do anything. i've been in this really bitter mood that i'm ashamed of. if that makes any sense ( Read more... )

i'm trying to get myself busy at home. i just have too much on my mind. it hurts thinking about it. i just wish i had a job or i had my license so i could be somewhere else. there are so many days that i think twice about things or overlook things. i have a problem with that. overlooking things. it gets me into trouble ( Read more... )

well...last night i hung out with whit. it was fun. we had fun. then today we woke up and made heart-shaped pancakes for her boyfriend. they're cute ( Read more... )

i just want to disappear. i hate it here and the people around me here. this environment that i'm in isn't healthy for me or you. i want to move out far..and start over. to re-event myself. someone that no one knows..someone i don't know. i hate my friends here..except a few. a possible four. someone save me..