nothing turns out the way i want. . i'm so torn. i wish i could just tell him everything i'm thinking. he obviously has no problem doing it. i guess it's just because i don't even know what i want. i feel like a bitch. . in more ways than one. all that is going through my head is "you can't always get what you want. . ". i guess that's true. . but ( Read more... )

i didn't forget i had this thing, i've just taken up pretending i don't like it. but i'm over that, atleast for today. or tonight. . depends how you want to look at it. it's been forever. . over two years since i last wrote in here, but periodically i do come and check on my 'friends' pages. . it seems almost all of you have given up on this also. ( Read more... )

no matter what i do, its always the opposite.
when im silent, somehow im screaming, and vise versa.

its actually quite exausting.

i miss a best friend.
i miss friends in general.

"double this drink up into the, tallest glass you got ( Read more... )

whos mom wont let their own kid live with them?
and whos malicious ex boyfriend doesnt let you stay at the house?
whos bottle of alcohol will never betray them?

mine, mine, mine.
i guess im just bound to be an alcoholic.

can i sleep on your couch?

since when is a vacation with a friend a crime ( Read more... )

oh and do this

please

http://kevan.org/johari?name=starsthatarent

also, i miss simon.

missing :

( Read more... )

i drink to forget..
but all i do is remember.

. thats not funny at all.

i hate when people joke about it ( Read more... )