I'm slowly easing out of my desire for this impossible love. I must or else I'm done for. They will never know I had these feelings and that settles fine with me. Trying to move on the best I can.

boo hoo, on me. i'm so retarded, but i'll accept it all. i know what i'm good for, and i'm not going to compromise over something dumb as an ideal. time to get over that ugly hole that rears it's ugliness every chance is gets. i don't care. i now accept that' i'm ill-equiped as one friend has said. i don't care anymore. i'd rather be alone ( Read more... )

defying gravity. so stoic, i can't have it. it's a waste of time. enforce the waning. forgetful, such a sin. forgive, i can't. isolation is protection. safe is what i have to be. it must end. it will end. it never began.

in waking hours, my nightmares haunt me. those jerks need to leave me be when i'm awake and when i'm asleep. jerks

what is it about Franz Ferdinand that makes me drop the "a" out of my asexuality. haha ( Read more... )

okay, so this is how it's going to go. i'm not going to ever confront the issue. i've done it in the past, and it's never worked out. i'm doing something wrong though i don't know if it is out of my control. i'm going to focus on my school work as i have done many times before. i will try to work out the kinks in my work because that's the ( Read more... )

He could be a certified liar. I'm not sure I'm supposed to take him seriously on that subject. We're so asexual with each other anyways. I think the stress of all things is digressing. I felt so much like Smurfette again. Oh well, it's weird. Time to focus on paper. It's starting to look up. Well, the ideas are. I'm not so sure about the ( Read more... )

I will kill this paper ( Read more... )

Feeling left out on of the days I shouldn't feel that way ( Read more... )

So dramatic ( Read more... )