glad to have kicked her out of my life.

gloat.

Waste the day away. Feeling utterly useless. Editing photographs, concealing flaws. The modern world reminds us of our assumed need to improve ourselves everyday. Nothing is ever really good enough. Perfect yourself untill the day you die. Even in death appearance is crucial. Dress youself up for the final show even if you won't be alive to ( Read more... )

It's time to try new things. Isn't it always ( Read more... )

Organization keeps me sane. Obviously, I've got issue to deal with. Control issue, to be exact. Sort of lost it big time the other day, and it didn't help at all to have an audience via cell phone and in person. Rather not discuss all over again, for it's just better that way. After all these years, still dealing with the same old, for lack of ( Read more... )

And as wonderful as that sounds, I'm fully aware that I'm completely unprepared for it ( Read more... )

We don't drive.

What did I expect to get out of this? I can't answer that question. I feel that it's very much over. The lesson seems that in any even on any occassion I am and will always be alone, invisible, and soon to be forgotten. My efforts gone unlooked. What I have to offer is momentarily temporary. Useless to you now. Anyone could give what I had ( Read more... )

I don't care. I knew this would happen that's why I didn't attempt any form of communication. Tired of being ignored, but I'm not one to say "pay attention to me" that should be a given. Jerk. I try and try to be supportive, to believe in other people but that well has been tapped to death. I just don't have it in me to be that person I was

The nail pulled away at the skin yet there is an over coming urge to write ( Read more... )