sooo after 45 or so hours of fasting, the longest I'v done in awhile and without getting sick and dizzy and not able to do anything I broke it with salad...then..my sister made cake.  She made cupcakes and a cake with that betty crocker in the middle thing..so I had some.  Although it sounds bad I don't feel as guilty because I did it with control ( Read more... )

success..nothing to eat at all today just water. getting ready then heading to the movies to see matt..havn't seen him in like a week :( i miss him so much..I wanted him to come over but my mom is being ergh herself..i dunno if its the not eating or the not taking my meds but i'm very emotional..crying because i miss him so much and know i'm only ( Read more... )

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK..I binged last night..after doing so well for so long. Sure I gained a lil but atleast it was muscle and from normal eating. Shit I havn't binged in weeks or months. Thats it. I'm not eating breakfast because it gives my body permission to eat more. I'm not eating anything, at all so I can stop while I'm ahead. If I ( Read more... )

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anyone else on myspace??feel free to add me but please watch coments because friends that are unaware of my disorder are reading..thanks <3 ( Read more... )

soo did taebo for an hour*the website says up to 800 cals burned per hour??*and this was the advanced get ripped one!Did some pilates stuff too..gonna cool off and then go on the bike for awhile after dinner..I will and can do this.

well definitly didn't lose weight over the weekend but i don't think i gained much.  Mowed the lawn and did lots of cleaning since my mom wasn't with us so i hope i like broke even.  had salads and such when possible.  Actually had a really good weekend but i'm tired of this bullshit and i'm getting down to business.  Had a bowl of total for ( Read more... )

ok so after a lil scare last night, lol we thought i had appendicitis-i'v prolly just fucked up my system-but yeah no appendicitis, woke up and its all gone.  So gonna go see bewitched with matt in a lil while and then i have to go to the race track later to see our horse race and then my dad is dragging us to the beach house until tuesday, ugh, i ( Read more... )

by the way..someone ANYTIME IM me if I'm on I swear I wont bite and I'll talk..whatever..if you need to vent, vent at me I won't take it personally I swear. Tips, fasting, ranting on I don't care I just need interactions..I hate being so alone in my thoughts and feelings..I think I forgot to take my meds today I havn't been this depressed in

2 weeks in, 2 weeks of summer break and i'm already losing it. This was supposed to be a turning point-the best summer yet. Therapy all winter and spring and even weening off the meds, ha yeah well hoping that this summer will be easier doesn't help. Stuck inside all day, with my sisters constantly arguing and whining. I'm trying to stay busy ( Read more... )

can't be in this house anymore..my sister and i are fighting, my shorts are now ripped in half i have no energy or motivation to excercise i miss my boyfriend horribly my mom is working two weeks straight which is not good and my dad is pmsing lol. i did highlight my hair tho..