so I'v been cleaning all day and took a nice loong steamy shower and I havnt eatin anything and I'v had water and this vanilla herb tea. I'm hoping between today and tomorrow I'll get rid of these three pounds!!Dunno if anyone else saw it but my dad watches it it's the ultimate fighter reality show thing and this guy had to lose three pounds in ( Read more... )

damn read only mode..well I did type up a whole post but now I'll just summarize. Spring break trip in three weeks..I will be 120 by then. I'v been maintaing 125 and it's time to go to the next interval. No more b/s..went shopping yesterday and I'm not buying and jeans or rewarding myself with stuff until I'm that perfect size 2..I cant be 0 ( Read more... )

fuck binging..two days of "normal" eating and look where it gets me-3 fuckin lbs heavier-I'm so bloated my stomach is sticking out ERGH no more of this shit!!I didn't even binge that bad it was just a bite of this and a bite of that never a whole piece of food but no..I'm bloated and nasty and eww. So I had 120 cals of oatmeal for breakfast and ( Read more... )

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ok so I'm realllly trying to resist right now..I'm alone..in the kitchen but I'm not going to give in I'm stronger than this!!I cut last night,not because I was caught up in the moment and couldn't take it anymore..but because I was bored and couldn't fall asleep and figured sure why not. It wasn't bad, just did it went to the bathroom rinsed off ( Read more... )

She smiled sweetly at her reflection as for a second she was beautiful - she was someone ( Read more... )

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ok so finally got to go see matt and I even managed to only have that sort of chicken salad and yogurt. At his house tho his mom made us grilled cheese and tomato soup..I saw their bread it was the light kind and I only had one spoon of soup..how many cals you think??I'v had two extremly obsessive days..I'm with him and all I can think about is ( Read more... )

i don't understand it..these people have like away messages up "fooooood :)" how could you ever get excited over food..how can they eat and enjoy it and not feel guilty-and then still look amazing and not gain weight..wtf..why me!!Oh well..I'm stronger..I don't need food, unlike they think they do. Psh just wait til summer comes around..and my ( Read more... )