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[starvingthin]

I have been doing negative calories the past two days - as in, I work off more than I consume. And for about four days before that I've gone to the gym for around two hours each day, and using those lovely little things known as laxatives for everything else I've eaten. My insides, and I can fuck them p if I do so desire. I haven't thrown up in

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[hope_is_swift]

oh darling.
yep, your insides. you can fuck them up if you want to.
but i happen to love you,
& happen to care about your insides,
& it makes me want to cry that you're hurting yourself so.

& i know i'm a hypocrite.
i just love you is all.
& i guess i think that, 'well, starving isn't so bad,
because at least its kind of half natural'
(& don't ask me where i get that idea from);
and that 'purging/laxatives is bad because its actually damaging your body.'
all this from she who was fucking days from death,
heart failing,
kidneys banked up,
on dialysis for weeks. i'm such a screw-ball.
but i love you.

whats your email address, darling?
do you have msn or aim?
xx

[starvingthin]

I follow the "starving is natural and purging is not" idea ... it does seem right.

Email/msn: kathryn-j@hotmail.com