yay for the unit, katie! that's so exciting! where abouts is mt nelson, dear? lol, what state are we talking about?
& the purging. i get so fucking worried, nowadays, hearing about people - especially people i care about - purging. i don't want to lose you. & don't sit there telling me its fine, & that i won't, & its under control, & you'll stop before you kill yourself. that's what i thought.
& i was fucking lucky. katie, i worry. & i love you. xx
it's okay ... i hate purging so ... well, i try to avoid it. i do it only when i absolutely have to. and i know they can say there is no have to, but these are the people who can say you can eat anything, can say looks don't mean anything, who can say a reflection is only one image. sure, they may be right, but it's not true - y'know. i wish i could reassure, but i can only say i try my best to avoid the whole thing. and when i'm home, i'm less likely to do it because i feel more in control of what i can and can't eat ...
but thank you; it is easy to put it to the back of my mind, ignoring the possibilities, saying; i'm not underweight, i'm not sick, so bulimia can't kill me. and i know that's bullshit, i know it can kill anybody, from the first time purger to ... well, to me. so thank you xx
i've found the unit in Tassie; Mt Nelson is ... abuot 15 minute drive from Hobart, but that's because you have to drive down a long windy road to the bottom; it's got lovely views (will psot some when I move in)
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that's so exciting!
where abouts is mt nelson, dear?
lol, what state are we talking about?
& the purging.
i get so fucking worried, nowadays,
hearing about people - especially people i care about - purging.
i don't want to lose you.
& don't sit there telling me its fine,
& that i won't,
& its under control,
& you'll stop before you kill yourself.
that's what i thought.
& i was fucking lucky.
katie, i worry.
& i love you.
xx
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but thank you; it is easy to put it to the back of my mind, ignoring the possibilities, saying; i'm not underweight, i'm not sick, so bulimia can't kill me. and i know that's bullshit, i know it can kill anybody, from the first time purger to ... well, to me. so thank you xx
i've found the unit in Tassie; Mt Nelson is ... abuot 15 minute drive from Hobart, but that's because you have to drive down a long windy road to the bottom; it's got lovely views (will psot some when I move in)
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