lack of color

[starxwhore]

I am so sad. i dont know what is wrong, i wish i knew or had any type of idea on why i feel this way but i don't. i feel so helpless and so forgotten. im here in the place of my dreams...seeing the ocean...riding the ocean...loving this paradise...but its not paradise because im still so unhappy. what the fuck is wrong with me? i swear to God a

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[societysbox]

i'll switch places with you. I would so love to be where you are. Near the ocean & shit. instead of this dump of an apt. We keep getting fucked over. Gawd, I'd love to be where you are. Where you are, or cali, or ireland, or new zeland. haha even japan. Somewhere but here. You know me. I wanna play in the sand, & watch the sunset go down. Take long walks on the beach. Jump & splash around in the ocean. I wanna be a kid. I wanna be the kinda person you see on tv. Where everyone around is watching her, laughing & smiling. just having so much fun. I wouldnt care if it rained every day. As long as i got to go out & play in it. As long as someone was watching me. Smiling at me. *shrugs* it be fun to go somewhere w/ "my friends" but.... haha my friends suck. They never wanna go anywhere. Except cath. But I harely talk to her now because tom & her had some "problems". I hope they get over it.
You know what? I miss being friends w/ you too. I do miss the way it use to be way back when. When we talked everyday. When i was almost like your "2nd

[starxwhore]

i don't like being sappy or getting emotional either, but do know that i miss you more. sometimes when i sit down and think which i rarely do now, the thought of us and how we helped eachother get through life daily makes me cry. its like im holding onto something that im not so sure i should hold onto but i dont care and i keep doing it anyway. i wish there was someway we could get us back. i guess trying is better than not doing anything at all and letting silence take over. so i will try and try and try until i can't try anymore. <33333

[starxwhore]

oh megan -holds onto you and never lets go- im so happy i have someone like you that cares for me as much as you do. just knowing you're there helps alot. my name may be pretty but the person behin the name is what matters. iloveyoutoomegan.
<33333

[xcrashyourstar]

-holds you tightly- oh eve, i know exactly what you're feeling. just remember the sun is still there behind all the rain clouds. you'll be okay again, i promise. i wish i was by the ocean. there's just something about hearing the crashing of the waves that calms me down, even for just a little bit. try to have fun, okay? forget about everything that is weighing you down... not everyone gets to go to hawaii so have fun while it lasts. i know that me saying this will probably irritate you because its way easier said than done, but hey, i have faith in you. bottle these moments because 5-10 years from now, youll treasure it. I LOVE YOU. <3

[starxwhore]

jeddalyn...I LOVE YOU.

thank you for always being there and being you. <333333

[gutterbloom]

oh honey, -hugs you tight-
i wish it wasn't like this for you.
(PS. hope hawaii is sunny and beautiful)
xoxox

[starxwhore]

-hugs you back-

actually its really windy here right now and im kind of cold. i never thought someone could be cold in hawaii. xoxo

[scarlight]

Oh, do feel better, love.
Come on over here, get a pack on Menthols, and I will gladly smoke with you.

[starxwhore]

pack of menthols..check
trying to feel better..check
getting over there...working on it!

its definitely a date when i get my lazy ass to where you are. <3