was a sad day at work. heather came in and told me and marianne that will had passed away. heather and i had just seen him the night before and i had talked to will that night after i got off. we were supposed to go out and do something this week. i never thought anything like this would have happened. its fucking crazy. i sat in the car with the ( Read more... )

my life couldn't be any better right now. i never thought the single life would be so much fun. i love not wondering what someone else is doing, just what I'M doing and going to do. i have THE BEST friends i could ever want. my boys mean the world to me and my girls just top it all off. this summer has been crazy but i wouldn't change a thing if my ( Read more... )

so i totally feel like that one loser girl that can't get a boyfriend.

or the really slutty girl that just fucks everyone. (thats not at all true but its all any guy wants from me.)

fuck life. and fuck my life in texas. i need to get away!

so derek just wasn't cutting it and thennn... he went off and decided he actually liked me and didn't just wanna fuck me. too late buddy. you made it clear in the begining what that relationship was gonna be and i was fine with it and kept it that way. now you wanna change your mind? doesn't work like that. either way, he wasn't good in bed anyways ( Read more... )

i have a crush. its pretty exciting.

so i just finished watching one of those things on the history channel about the end of the world. december 21, 2012, is the day the world will change. i believe the mayans and the ancient chinese proficies. its actually really cool shit, its just not cool at all because its only 5 years away. they talked about merlin's proficies but i think he was ( Read more... )

i don't understand this kid. he says he just wants to fuck but then he calls me to tell me he just finished watching a movie and he's going home. i don't get it! we had sex for the first time today, and we totally just watched tv and cuddled on the couch after. i don't understand boys that just wanna fuck you but still keep you around to be friends ( Read more... )

so i had a wonderful afternoon with kassandra and the boy. and then shit just blew up in my face ( Read more... )

hmmm i really wanna fuck someone. and not just anyone. a certain someone who happens to come back into town tomorrow. but i don't wanna be a dirty whore. i haven't even been on a date with this kid. we've only hung out 3 times. oh well, i guess we'll see what happens ( Read more... )

i really need to spend a large sum of money on myself. i'm going crazy with all my bills and having no money. its bringing the total moral DOWN. not even playing with boys is helping! i need to do some serious shopping ASAP ( Read more... )