hi again... im at rehearsal with alissa (what a loser). chillin in kaps room. shes being extremely loud and very annoying. such a freak ( Read more... )

in the library with sammers. chillin because we're both intimidated by the cafeteria. nah not really, but at the same time... yea ( Read more... )

i hate the play. i hate being there and feeling like i don't exist. i hate thinking like this. i hate knowing that my existance doesnt really make a difference. i hate feeling shitty. i hate being forced to socialize with people who just don't get me. i hate feeling sorry for myself. i hate all the stress im under. i hate. i hate that i wrote this

i really do have a lot to say, about this weekend and all, but in no way do i feel like writing right now. i'm having so many focusing issues right now, like i can't do anything for more than 3 seconds ( Read more... )

i'm so sorry. i don't even know what to say. i guess as its all sinking in this whole thing is becoming more and more real. i didn't even know him. but jesus, i can't even begin to imagine the pain this is bringing to everyone who did know Ronnie. i'm so sorry. i wish i could say something that could take it all away, make the pain disappear, but ( Read more... )

I bought a shirt online tonight. do anything not study.... i like it. look:


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even though i enjoyed myself, i now regret my entire weekend. why didn't i start studying until today? why do i always put things off until the last possible second and then freak out. why couldn't i have the foresight to realize that this is what would happen. me, monday night before my midterms, FREAKING OUT. foresight is a funny thing. if you ( Read more... )

i have never laughed so hard in my entire life. seriously, i thought i was gonna die-- i pretty much stopped breathing, and kat was literally foaming at the mouth. tonight was perfect. got no studying done-- didn't even crack a book. well except for that book of poetray, but that doesn't count. i did i little reading for kat-- the jabberwocky by ( Read more... )

just ran some errands with my dad. nothing too interesting. tried to find the sync wire/adapter thingy for my i-pod, but we were unsuccessful. anyway... nothing too interesting to say, but i felt compelled to post anyway, i'll probably delete this one later. off to sydnee's to study for the ap euro midterm, gonna be a killer. maybe starbucks later ( Read more... )

i had such a great night. needed this so badly. just completely stress-free, completely open. i think i told people more secrets about myself tonight than i have ever told anyone. and it felt amazing to just be totally open and myself and discuss things that i never thought i could really talk about. so this is what it means to have real ( Read more... )