everyone is leaving me. this is so incredibly, ridiculously upsetting in a way i can't even express. what the fuck am i going to do? im going to hole up in my room with the two books i bought today (the bell jar, and white oleander) and the one i dont want to be reading (snow falling on cedars) and spend some time with myself. time i don't want to ( Read more... )

just got back from the sands. went shopping with my mom. got new bras (not that you wanted to know). Ran into Timmy and kyle and tim's girlfriend Amy (who seems very nice even though i barely spoke to her), at starbucks-- while i was waiting for my mother and enjoying my hazelnut latte. that was nice because if i remember correctly tim was supposed ( Read more... )

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SYDNEE!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY SYDNEE!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY SYDNEE!!!

today sucked. period. i hate fighting and being around fights and thrown into fights. and all i was waiting for was an apology- i don't hold grudges, especially against you. i love you too. i want to finish working so i can go to sleep and let this day be over. things always seem so good in the morning, now that its getting lighter and its all ( Read more... )

so its all over. officially. well it has to be, anyway.

this afternoon was so close to perfect. i love wanting to be outside, and going for aimless bikerides just for the sake of feeling the wind on my face. and sharing them with aimee. i love that have places to go and people to go with, and that im not just holed up in my room with my remote control. i loved just being with sam and aimee today. it was ( Read more... )

( the end of that survey i started last night )

just got back from frannie's sweet 16, i miss everyone already. there is really just this incredible sense of comfort that i get when im surrounded by people who know me almost as well as i know myself. i can be completely myself and enjoy myself in a way that just doesnt happen around anybody else. and its a shame, because i want my friends from ( Read more... )

i spent the majority of today holed up in my room with my ipod and my knitting. and suprisingly-- i enjoyed myself. i guess i really needed some alone time, and i didn't realize it. but now im ready for fun. i really wanted to go for a bike ride today, i still do-- unfortunately im pretending to be religious. the fact that im livejournaling now is ( Read more... )

my grandmother and seymour are here for the weekend. they are such a cute old couple. she's teaching me how to knit. and in case you're wondering: i'm feeling a lot better.