Today my dog of 10 years was put to sleep. She had cancer growing in her mouth. I don't think I have ever felt more alone in my entire life. I will miss her and love her forever. So much other stuff has come on the pile before this happened. I hope things will get better for me

I hate the fact that sometimes I cant see past 2 feet in front of me and then when I open my eyes wide enough everything I tried to do in those first 2 feet were wrong. I feel broken. Like I lost a piece of me. I hate that. Im going to try and make it right no matter how long it takes.

I was thinking about this song I wrote when i was 13 called Alone. Its a really ridiculous song but one of the first I wrote and for whatever reason seemed to really outline what has come to pass. I don't really know why and I only remember a few of the lyrics. What I do remember is what has been troubling me lately. But I am alone. Its how its ( Read more... )

And i finally figured it out. Time to move on to the next thing is what makes the most sense. As much as I don't want to, I think thats the best idea. Ive been down the waiting road before and it lead me astray. Time to avoid that again ( Read more... )

So this weekend was really fun! Friday we went to South Lake Tahoe and played a really fun show. Then we drove to reno and stayed at a friends house. Turns out he had a mini ramp in the back yard so I got to thrash it a little bit. The next day we hung out with more friends all day and went swimming. We headed to the show and I found out that down ( Read more... )

Work was really slow so it got me thinking about things. My boss started giving me shit, I had an intense phone conversation, I kept getting hassled, and the only person I can think about is 2000 miles away. I keep falling into that pattern when shit gets boring. I keep trying to keep my mind occupied so I can stop thinking that she is so far away ( Read more... )

Ive started recording some of my acoustic songs that I have written. I was inspired by the last acoustic song I wrote to do this because I thought it was a pretty good song and Its very heartfelt to me. So I decided its time to lay the tracks down and put them up on myspace. The songs are pretty poppy and nothing like anything else I do but i think ( Read more... )

Yesterday's show with the Germs and Krum Bums was fucking amazing!! There was so many people there and they were really into us. It was awesome hanging out with the Krum bums again. Those dudes are so much fun and are such a good band. I keep noticing each show and each tour gets better and thats quite awesome. I can't wait for the next tour. Im ( Read more... )

So this is my kinda new journal. Its kinda new because ive had this for years but i never use it so its a new thing that im going to try to start doing. Its 2:46 in the AM and I wrote a song just now that im pretty stoked on. In a couple days im going to redo it and get it sounding right and it should be a hot jam! Total dance party hit haha ( Read more... )