if i'm content alone
and my thoughts are clear
i don't need anyone to cheer me up

then i should be okay
around anyone

right?

so.
i'm pretty sure that you will always be in my heart
and i've tried to forget you, and i've tried to get over you
and i don't think it will happen
but i can move on
and i can be content
and
i think
will.

i wish i could forget about you
and stop missing you so much
i wish i didn't think about you

i wish i could be okay for more than a couple days at a time
and i wish that i could get over things that happened so long ago
my thoughts are such a tangled mess and i can't sort them out
i have a headache and heartache and i can't fix anything

i am so happy to come home to the house with a warm fireplace waiting for me,
bright eyes to make me happy insiiiddeee.

plus horoscopes are amazing they tell me that i'm finally feeling well and it's time to push forward
and that monday i'm wondering how i'm going to get through alll the work this week and and and
tuesday that i find out i reallly am ( Read more... )

does it always come back to this?
i'm so sick missing so much school
wishing i could move to portland and start over.
and missing the same person foreverforeverforever.
why can't i move on?
everything here is always so incomplete
at my happiest here, somethings still missing
and i wish i could change it
but i don't know how.

and even fancy things
have finally lost their charm
wine and diamond rings
they never get you anymore
you're sleeping again, alone
cause nobody loves you

it's been a book
you read in reverse
so you understand less
as the pages turn

makes too much sense to me
plus ive never woken up so sad as i did today.
i don't know what to do anymore.

why are you so far away? she said
why won't you ever know, that i'm love with you
that i'm in love with you?

and it's just so goddamn hard
to get in front of everything
i keep falling behind
if i could only keep up.

best night ever?