How do I overcome the feeling that in order to be loved, to deserve love, I have to be useful?

Just dance, it'll be ok.

So Zach Patterson and Heather Wardell broke up, and I fee like someone died. I'm so sad :(

SORE.
and happy :)
I love working

I love sushi.

word on the street is that I am smiling even more than usual

I hate hospitals.

I really feel like this anemia thing is getting worse :(
Its so stupid that I am tired all the time
raaar! there are things I wanna do! I sleep too much, and too poorly.

In happier news...I can't wait till 4th of July!
and, I have clean sheets and changed my bedspread.
Clean house = happy Neela.

In 1 week I should be signed up for the next year and a half of my life.
ooooooooh man am I excited!!!

wow I have no been this stressed in forever. uuuuuugh.