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This week, I went to high schools in the Boston area to present to high school and middle school girls about engineering. It's part of Womens Initiative, which aims to catch girls at the young age and turn them onto engineering ( Read more... )

my intake was this afternoon. It was more scary, overwhelming, and full of fear as I imagined. I'm relieved that I'm getting support though. I just feel like a giant piece of shit for not working hard enough on my own to have to resort to this. All just simple choieces, dumbass.

We will miss you and always remember the 15 years you spent here, Coach Cowher. You are a Pittsburgh legend. Here's to 15 wonderful years in the 'Burgh. Thank you for all the memories.

I went to North Park and ran for 2.5 miles this morning. It was freaking awesome. I'm excited about running in Central Park next year. While running, I realized that this was MY life. I should be the one driving it, not just listening to all the backseat drivers like I have in 2006. Listening to myself and not conforming to what others want out of ( Read more... )

It's frustrating that I entered solid recovery for about 3 years. It's scary that in this relapse, I don't want to let go of my ED anymore. When I entered recovery, I was motivated by hope. Hope that college (without an eating disorder) would bring lasting friendships, academic passions, happiness, self-acceptance, and open up the door to whatever ( Read more... )

Resolution to the job issue (as suggested to me by my friend Ray) - work there for 6 months, but perferably a year. Also, applying to the 5th year Masters at MIT in engineering. I can defer admission to the program, then I can go back to school if I hate my job. Since I'll be back at MIT, I'll have access to the same companies and recruiters, which ( Read more... )

Studymonster.

I honestly don't think that I'm going to fit in anywhere. Not at MIT, not at NA, nor on Wall Street. I don't really know what I want out of my life, but I do know that I'm not going to find happiness. I have to choose it. The only place I half fit in with is my sorority. They're just so sweet and awesome and supportive, though. Most people don't ( Read more... )

Good weekend. Highlights ( Read more... )