today was a really good day actually. School went fine, and i went to panera with steve after school. We got soups and i got a hot chocolate which was actually good! and then he came over afterwards which was fantastic like always. Then he went to get his haircut. I took my final grabs of his hair haha.  We're so funny together haha. Like he makes ( Read more... )

There were things i wanted to tell him. But i knew they would hurt him. So i buried them, and let them hurt me.
I put my hand on him. Touching him was always so important to me. It was something i lived for. I could never explain why. Little, nothing touches. My fingers against his shoulder. The outsides of our thighs touching as we squeezed ( Read more... )

he doesn't know this but on the phone this morning during my break at nassau suffolk [which was awesome btw] when he said "i love you" i had the biggest smile on my face and it completed my perfect morning ( Read more... )

I went running with sarina and kerry, it was fun. i had a good day. went to the diner for dinner with steve, sarina and frank, then got andys present which was funny. we are such a humourous couple that steve and i. got to andys chilled out. talked. i had a headache so it wasnt too good. went to steves to get the prom money and his new phone which ( Read more... )

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School was fine. Actually no, it was great. Went for smoothies which was nice. It was good. Is everything fine? I don't know. I'm self concious about what im doing now, what i'm saying. if im being over emotional. if im not doing the right thing. what is the right thing? Sometimes i dont know that answer. I spend 23 hours a day ( Read more... )

I hate fighting. Even if it does bring people closer. it doesnt make me feel better.
But everything is okay, and that is all that matters.

goodnight.

ps. i'm not going to lie to you. so please don't lie to me. it's so hard to believe you. but i trust you. and i care about you.

I can't be trusted by myself ( Read more... )

Saw Persuit of happyness with steve and berk. I cried haha. It was sad and depressing. One of those movies. Then i went back to steves and we just played video games and watched some tv. he was so tired and i got him sickkkk. =[ i always get him sick. he looks so sad when hes sick. not like depressed but like, you know, SICK. lol. i hope he feels ( Read more... )

hehe. really good song. Edwin McCain. It made me cry. And happy. And in loveeee. =] i think you'll like this one ( Read more... )

So apparently i have some eating disorder or something ( Read more... )