i, stefanie, have made a new journal. you may look at it by simply going to sway_fets_way

lost? maybe... confussed? profoundly... finished? well yes! connections to my father are depleated... i don't know him... he thinks he knows me... which might i add is a crack whore heroin addict, who lost her earings during one of her numerous orgies of the evening... well he pinpointed me on that one i must say... but the burning desire to ( Read more... )

i want to make clear that i am offically heald! i am officially happy. i want to scream, jump, pray, more than anything just to give recognision to the ones that make me me. make me happy. the most crative and ingenious writing tool i have ver discovered is reapeating words... discriptive words like want, need, love, hate... feelinwords... when i ( Read more... )

it is so weird how one night with a few close friends can open you up and change your out look on things.... this has seriously been a great night... nothing special just the conversations and opening upnessityness! things came out that i never thought whould and just blah blah blah... it's great...i love my remaining friends... they great right ( Read more... )

wow things are so sickaning... people are soo sickaning... im tired of bull shit im tired of stress im tired of people and all the problems they bring. i want it to stop, i want a normal life. i want to just have fun and i want to rid my life of the things that are preventing all of this. i know without problems or drama then you will never grow in ( Read more... )

What's a weird fear you have that no one else probably does?: gynocologist ( Read more... )

never have i been so relieve to be sick. yesterday i was just that, sick. and i got to stay home curl up in a blanket and watch tacky yet entertaining movies all day on paperview. well i got a lot of thinking in and alot of reading. and i have come to the conclution that i am content. nothing more nothing less. the nick buisness i shall be ( Read more... )

i can't say i have yet to understand who is feeling what or what dog house im in... i hate that this shit always happens to me... things just pop up out of no where... feelings that i never thought anyone had, people doing thing i never thought they would do... and lately it seems like it's becomeing a rutein... it's bad enough just happening once ( Read more... )

now it's getting to be too much... all the gossip shit and all the lies and back stabing and just bull shit... you think you know someone but you don't ... you think things are fine with another but they're not... people think they know whats going on with you but they don't either... and man what the hell is the point of being friends if they can' ( Read more... )

man i have so much anxiety at the moment... actually the last couple days i have felt like that... like im really confussed about my feeling towards everything and i hate it... and oh man the fucking gossip at our school is horendous. alright so me and jeff kissed ... for about 10 sec. and now the whole school knows. the only reason it happend was ( Read more... )