( hurrcut )

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when we were kids laying around on the lawn

on our bellies -

we often talked about how we'd like to die.

and we all agreed on the same thing:

we'd all like to die fucking.

(although none of us had done any fucking)

and now that we are hardly kids any longer

we think more about how not to die..

and although we're ready, most of us would prefer to do ( Read more... )

today my mom was gunna come up, we were all gunna go to dereks work then take him to the mall and out to eat and a movie for his birthday which is tomorrow. i was all excieted, we were gunna do it today, and i had today off. i bought him presents and was in a good mood at school because i didn't work and was actually doing something. my mom calls ( Read more... )

i miss seth
my fingers hurt from shelving books
but i get money for it
so i can buy a new face
plus i've started reading.
-charles bukowski-
happy birthday nikki <3

Hiieee. i am sick because i've purposley been without caffine for the past 5 days. i'm going on a diet. i have to loose 13 pounds. TODAY, my lover in siville spain called me. we talked for about a hlaf hour. it's the first time i've heard his voice in like 5 days. it's insane. but he really likes it there. so that's great. He's gunna post me some ( Read more... )

My heart is still in the united states. I got out of school after first period today to go to seth's and hang with him and his family until we left to the airport. It got delayed until tomorrow in which i will be getting out of school early again. He got me a beautiful rose and a card. I didn't think i would be able to go again tomorrow so he said ( Read more... )

Hiiee. Hope all is good n' stuff. i know i never update and i'm sure that doesn't bother anyone or anything. But i do get on here and read your guys' stuff. All that's been going on with me is school and seth. Since he is leaving this tuesday for spain, for 6 months. it's hard. tonight he is at a funeral and i'm alone doing photo stuff..eating ( Read more... )

Hi everyone. Tonight has been the lamest. Aw, i had to save seth from U of I and take him to his sisters cause his keys and car were somewhere else. I don't know it was confusing. Well me and my mom and kyle went to see my brother at the antique shop and then we all went to bazbeaus for some sweet-ass vegitarian pizza. Then came home and went to ( Read more... )

Hieee. Ekk. I turned 17 yesterday. Got tonnnnns of stuff. hollister clothes, my boombox bag, flats! money, cake, flowers, 'real' plugs, olive garden, you know <3 thanks to everyone who said and even some who got me something. sweet. Today i got out of school @ 11 and went to vals, then we went out to bloomington. We hung out at mikes apt and ( Read more... )