feel. good. lost.

[stellaluce]

i think i'm going to quit livejournal. these posts have become my only means of expression, and they've become more and more measly. my little world is curled around their simple artifice. this journal is just as narcissistic as me taking snapshots of my self and posting them, again and again, begging people to know me through them

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[bassgtrchk]

Chicken scratch and catharsis is basically what my LJ is, for me :) I've given up on trying to sound deep or arty or thoughtful anymore; my LJ started as simply a way of quickly updating people on my life while I was away at college, because sometimes it just sucks to send out mass emails. Anyone who cared to know more would either comment, or email me, or even call me.

Sometimes I wonder if people actually care what I write, since I never get many responses (or any at all), but then I tell myself, I just can't care about that. If people don't respond, it's either because 1) I see them in person anyway, and it's much nicer to talk in person, or 2) they're too busy or preoccupied with their own lives and friends, and in that case, I shouldn't take it personally.

So, I'm sad you won't be on LJ anymore, but then I'm not sad, because I see you a lot anyway :) Will you be around (at least a little) this weekend for the holiday?

[frozenbears]

Hooray for Faye!

[stellaluce]

i may just figure something else out. but for now, yeah.

i will be with my family wednesday-saturday, so i probably won't be in milpitas at all... but i'm going to bake a pie for the boys/linh/you/rups because i'm thankful :)

p.s. mrs fuqua? do you call her by her first name? i don't know what to call a boyfriend's mom/any adults, i was raised in a barn. lately we've acheived a sort of sweet closeness, though, which i am pleased with and i think maybe she doesn't think i'm a raging druggie anymore.

[bassgtrchk]

I call her Bac Linh, since "bac" in Vietnamese is an address for adults who are older than your parents. (Yeah, it's kinda weird.)

My family will be out of town weekend, so I'll be hanging out with Jimmy mostly. Laura will be in town this weekend too!

[stunman]

but i love you!

[stellaluce]

<3

[frozenbears]

If you are in fact quitting LJ I would like to meet you in the Real Life, because I think you are neat.

[stellaluce]

that would be cool.

my aim is crookedspin2.

i am mildly Real Life phobic, but we'll see what we can arrange.

[cafesteu]

i really look forward to reading your stuff :\ i understand your annoyance at this though, particularly the need to try and appease appeal. it's hard to break out of that. i do it too much.

take care :\

[stellaluce]

i'm not sure how permanent this deciscion is... sometime later i might mosey on back when i don't feel so watched. it's probably just neuroses anyway.... we will see.

hi molly

[blue13]

i enjoy your writings, whatever filters they pass thru. such is life ja know?

Re: hi molly

[stellaluce]

yes :)

damnit, i haven't responded to you favorite photographer comment yet. gimme another second.