… so much better when I’m in it. I like the feeling of calm, of everything going right. I love feeling the joy from everyone in my life. I love the love I feel from Travis and the excitement of our wedding getting closer. The wedding I’ve always wanted. I like feeling confident at work. I like being able to talk to people. I love knowing I’ve made ( Read more... )

… I’ve never seen the full moon this bright.

It’s like a damn spot light.

Blue moon.

I have so many songs in my head about the moon. I love the moon.

I’ve never heard 3:38 am in this backyard. It’s not as quiet as I thought it would be. So many crickets. Squeaky breaks on cars.

Bah. How does a night end before 9.

L&L
Chel

…feeling pretty bleh ( Read more... )

That’s what I post ( Read more... )

…to have Travis in my life. He really cares about the future and our future. We have had the best times together. He’s always doing cute little things for me. Always pays attention to me. This is just how it should be. I love the support we give each other

…expectations. I’m drained. Sad. Tired. I really don’t want to feel this way. I’m sorry I’m not perfect and that any perceived lack of perfection is immediate grounds to shit all over me. I’m selfish. All I do is love you. No way that I can make a mistake at any point or else. I’ll feel humiliated in public while eating , and yelled at in a car. ( Read more... )

She goes ( Read more... )

It probably is. I hate it. What should I do? Leave it all again. Is it running? Or is the cup overflowing. I want intense, but only the part of love. I can be wrong, for sure. To those that don’t know me. Should I want to be known? Should I just know myself? When someone is pissed and then retracted it and denies the motion, am I a liar? Is it my ( Read more... )

Wait to see your face
My safe place
Warm in bed
Never an end

We’ve transferred dna, we’ve transcended space and time.
In this moment you are mine.

I just love him. I scream it in my dreams so loud I’ve been afraid I’ve said it out loud. I hope I say it out loud.

It’s that moment in life when you actually feel alive ( Read more... )