I am happiest when I help others find a way to smile. This makes me feel worthy, necessary and concrete.

Don't stop loving. No one owes you anything -- even when you think he or she does. The satisfaction of lovely purely no matter what is much higher than revenge or a favor in spite. You may not think this now, Kendra, but you will realize it soon enough.

love,
your future.

Beagle Club is staying at my house tonight. It'll probably be the most whole I'll feel in a month ( Read more... )

It just dawned on me that when I go to Portland, I'll be able to walk down streets Elliott Smith did. I'll be on streets he wrote about. And that, my friends, will be great.

It's Saturday at home and I have nothing to do. Well, no one to do it with, at least. Surprise, surprise. It hasn't even been a week yet.

Last night, a man I do not know approached me and said just this: "Listen lady, I need you to play the lottery the next few days. The number is 750. You will win." So I bought a ticket ( Read more... )

Only a few days left in this town and I couldn't be lonelier.

1. Debbie Downer ( Read more... )

I went home on Friday. Didn't get there until well after midnight because of stupid car stuff. When the guy told me how much it would be to replace the air sensor, I just said do it. I like being away, but when I want to go see my parents, I really want to see them. Nothing will stop me. The $300 didn't. I handed over my card, it got fixed and ( Read more... )

I'm so in love it hurts. All I want to do is express it and show it and act it, but I can't.

Spring here. And so am I.

So, I kissed this friend a week ago. Shouldn't have done it. Now he asks me to hang out all the time, and I just don't want to. He's cute and cool and all, but I don't like him like that at all. Last night, Emmy was showing me pictures and stopped on the friend I DO like (actually, love). It crushed me. That's the difference. No one else gives me ( Read more... )