Is it wrong to be afraid of death? I mean, the death of others? Not that I have such a strong fear, but I've realized that the death of those around me really sets me off for awhile. Its one of those things that I really don't want to think about, but I do anyway. I just want life to be beautiful, which it is. I know thats too simple of a wish, but ( Read more... )

I really hate going to funerals. Like a lot. And not because of the obvious, more popular reasons. I don't get freaked out by the corpse or the tears and all the sad people. That's all expected and therefore unsurprising. But rather I hate the social construction of funerals. I feel like I'm going there to play this role or something. I never know ( Read more... )

Today I've been in a very weird state of emotions. I can and cannot place my finger on it. My emotions are mixed, and I've just entered this process of evaluating and organizing them. Nostalgia. Happiness. Sadness. Courage. Timidity. Fear. Ambition. Freedom. Confusion. Thats how I feel. I've finally decided on SUNY New Paltz for college. About an ( Read more... )

So, today I bummed it. I basically layed around my house all day doing nothing at all. I'm in a neutral mood though, however, I am dreading school tomorrow so badly. I don't want to go back. I went out with Tracy for Japanese food last night, and then we met up with Elena. We talked, which I love. And I realized that we're all going to be on ( Read more... )

Well, my cousin and his wife had a baby at 7am this past morning. A girl. How lovely. I'm happy for them. Jaden Marie is her name. I think its pretty ( Read more... )

I have no idea anymore. I'm tired of trying to figure out everything, and I'm tired of everything staring me in the face. Today I was coming out of work and my phone rang with a call from an old friend that I hadn't spoken to or seen in over a year. I listened to her voicemail, and I could hear this odd sort of concern, almost sad fear in her voice ( Read more... )

Jung Explorer Test
Actualized type: INTJ
(who you are)

INTJ - "Mastermind". Introverted intellectual with a preference for finding certainty. A builder of systems and the applier of theoretical models. 2.1% of total population. Preferred type: ESFJ
(who you prefer to be)

ESFJ - "Seller". Most sociable of all types. Nurturer of ( Read more... )

sudden1ysaturday: i just saved a squirrels life ( Read more... )

I think its time for people to open their eyes.
Basically this shit just really annoys me:

http://www.cnn.com/2006/US/03/06/btsc.lavandrera.funerals/index.html