Well to update this, I did go look for wedding dresses and found one. Decided to put a deposit on it, and well now the wedding is off. Me and Matt got into a fight and he called it off. I seriously dont think he is ready. I on the other hand are. But theres where the wedding lies ( Read more... )

Ahhh.. thats all i can say. I am in so much pain and im even on pain killers and relaxers and nothing seems to be working. Im downstate right now visiting my dad but will be going back home tomorrow morning and hopefully getting in to see a chiropractor. Hopefully we can get this healed so i dont have any more pain.

Ahhh.. Well today is just one of those days. I feel like crap, im bored.

But my best friend Ashley is coming to town and we're going to go look for a wedding dress for me. Im so excited. I love it.

Wow, so i never thought in a million years i would be here writing out my life once again, like i was in high school. Looking back at all the old posts that i have written, i couldnt believe it. It's like for a while there in my life things happen to just evaporate and i totally forgot all about 'em.

I dont know where i should start. Should i just ( Read more... )

so wow...my new years went great!!! i got my own way and went to Matthews Party!!! omg....it was the best time of my life even though i couldnt stay long..whatev! it was great while it lasted!! matthew had a pretty good buzz when i got there...and well he kept giving me one right after another! im like omg...no more lmao..it was so great tho..then ( Read more... )

so today i didnt really do much like usual..i was suppose to go to teresas but i totally forgot about it...but i rode the quads then watched the dukes of hazzard Twice!! i love that movie..but anyways...i have been downloading pictures for a while and well i talked to matthew and he really wants me to go to his party...so im like hmm...i really ( Read more... )

So as everyone else knows...today was christmas eve...but as for me.. i didnt know that..until about half the day was gone...so yeah...i didnt really do much today..just helped baked stuff...and then i opened all my presents...(but its not like i didnt know them already) then i cleaned my room and i have been trying to get a hold of ryan but im not ( Read more... )

So i was going through all of the entries that i made before in this lil book i have at home, and well it just made me cry. all i have to say is brian keith ehlers...i lov him so much and theres nothing i can do about it. and i hate that! most of all, hes going out with vanessa penn! the one person i hate with a passion! and well wednesday my ( Read more... )

alright so i was talking about ppl at our school..i wasnt pointing anyone out!! honestly!! i wasnt even talking about u...i told u about that shit between lindsay...im over it..i wasnt even talking or pointing on u at all i swear!!

so theres a party thursday and im not so sure im gonna go..my brother has court wednesday and im so worked up about that. it just seems everyone wants so much from me and i cant handle it anymore.. it just seems like nothings going right anymore and i hate it...i havent been in a good mood since i dont remember when! matthews an asshole, going out ( Read more... )