Comments | steph2003: hey....

steph2003

hey....

Nov 04, 2003 00:19

well just thought i would write in here since its been a while - theres not much to say but that i am alone and alone - the only person i have besides a few other people is my daughter - basically what i am trying to say is that - i dont have a marriage anymore - i havent really wanted to say that in here - but right now that is all i am thinking ( Read more... )

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madyson501 November 4 2003, 22:05:36 UTC

hey Steph- Miranda here- Amanda's friend -and all I have to say is I'm SURE you didn't do anything wrong. I have known Will for quite some time now, and Im SURE you didn't do anyhting wrong! Dont blame yourself for anything hun! I know he's your baby's daddy but you deserve much better than him! Keep your chin up you can pull through this- and come out on top!

thank you steph2003 November 5 2003, 17:22:10 UTC

hey miranda thank you for your comment it means alot to me - deep down inside i know i didnt do anything wrong but it feels like i did - and i dont know why - i guess i tried too hard to have something that was impossible to have - and all that i ended up with was heartache and pain - and of course tears like a river!! and i'm not just crying for myself i am also crying my daughter because this is effecting her too and he doesnt know it - i just want to know will he ever know that this is effecting his daughter as well - probly not - because he is will and he only thinks of himself and the shit he needs and thats it!! but anyways thank you again miranda!!

andi_again November 4 2003, 23:05:06 UTC

Steph- i know when your in a situation like this, all you wanna do is cry- and you have! but you have to sit down and face some reality.........look at all sides, of this equasion , and look at all the "SITUATIONS"(AND YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN) that have happened, and THEN ask yourself "what did i do wrong" and you will clearly see you didnt do anything but try to be a loving wife and mother. Will is a dick! you should know this by now.....he isnt capable to sharing true human compassion. and he never will! he is focused on himself.!!! he wants you to stay married to HIM, and then join the military! so HE CAN HAVE BENIFITS!--all the while trying to talk Mary's son out of joining the military? there is something seriously wrong here. You will be gone from your daughter for 6 months at a time maybe more if you go in as a Corman......and he wont ever have to deal with you because you will be gone all the time! I would just assume YOU STEPHANIE MICHELLE BURKE......GO TO SCHOOL, AND GET THAT MASSAGE DEGREE YOU WANT, OR GO IN AND DO SOMETHING ( ... )

i love you too steph2003 November 5 2003, 17:17:02 UTC

hey i knew i could always count on you to be there for me - i know its just madyson and myself now - as much as i hate to say that - its the truth - so everything i do and act on has to do with her - and i really dont want to do anything or act on anything bad - because it will effect her and i really dont want that - i just have to finally realize that it is just her and i and it always has been her and i and it will always be her and i - i guess i just didnt want to see it or face it because it hurts so much - but thank you for replying to my comment - it means alot to me amanda and so do you - i love you too!!

i love you too andi_again November 5 2003, 19:13:57 UTC

Did you read what i wrote about you being in the military? and wantsing to join and all that?

Re: i love you too steph2003 November 6 2003, 01:48:07 UTC

yes i read that - and i replied with what i wrote to you - thats why i wrote what i did - because its only about me and madyson now - there is no will and will never be either - so i have to get use to it being like that - his GIRLFRIENDS can have him because i dont want him anymore - i cant stand it anymore - let alone sit there and watch myself do the things i do to me - i cant do it anymore - because its just not effecting me its also effecting madyson -

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thehurtinmyeyes November 5 2003, 01:22:37 UTC

wow steph...i'm so sorry...i had no idea...remember that i'm always here to talk...i've always said that...i mean i don't exactly know how to relate to this but i will always listen and give the best advice i can...it will all be ok xoxo

thanks steph2003 November 5 2003, 17:07:58 UTC

thank you go much - this means alot to me - i am glad that i have someone i can talk to and that will listen - you dont know how much i need a friend right now - i mean i have a best friend and i love her to death and i do talk to her but its always good to have someone else to talk too! thank you again!!

Re: thanks thehurtinmyeyes November 5 2003, 23:38:14 UTC

of course...next time you're on i'll give you my cell number in case you ever need to talk and i'm not on...i hope today is going a little better xoxo

Re: thanks steph2003 November 6 2003, 01:59:40 UTC

ok that would be nice!!