well...

[stephanie_grace]

have you ever sat around and realized exactly how pathetic you are? well thats what i'm doing now. fuck christmas. fuck people. fuck life. fuck kalamazoo. fuck this whole damn world. fuck the six page letter i just wrote. fuck all the money i spent today to buy presents for a boyfriend that won't even do what he says he. fuck me for being stupid

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[stephanie_grace]

i was just having a bad day. i just hate the holidays right now. i have no family really, except my mom who has been in europe for the last two months, and jon is always busy, just annoyed lately... but i guess i should just be happy, i've got a cool job, amazing friends, and a boyfriend that i love, so fuck it, i'll be happy :)

dude, i saw black christmas today - it sucked!!! don't watch it

[jadedlefey]

jon is a great guy and he honestly cares a lot about you, plus you have tons of friends who love you including me, be happy. You could have an insane ex on your back right now reminding you of how worthless you felt when you were with them, be grateful :) You are loved and life is good. :)

[stephanie_grace]

thanks so much! i know jon cares about me, but he is just driving me crazy lately. a lot of stupid fucked up stuff has happened. i'm not sure if you think it'd be weird for me to talk to you about stuff like that or not, but if it's not weird, we so need to get together for a drink sometime soon and chat. i do love all my friends, you guys are all so great, and i'm so thankful for everyone that is here for me, i was just really stressed out when i wrote this, you know how it goes when you get all mad and have a few drinks and end up on livejournal. i'm just upset with my family being gone and my lack of money and me and jon are on a break now, and i'm not even sure if things can be fixed after what he did a few weeks ago, especially on top of all the things we've done to eachother... blah, i'm off to cook dinner

it's cool

[jadedlefey]

Yeah, I know how it goes, it's good to have a rant from time to time. Sorry things are stressful for 'ya right now, and you can for sure talk to me about all of that stuff. Jon and I were over a long time ago, and we've always been pretty okay friends through the years. He likes you, he talked about you a lot so it seems like it at least means something. Let's get a drink or something friday or saturday. It'd have to be before 5 'cause I work 5-close at pasta. thursday I work 11:30am - 10:30pm friday 5-close saturday 5-close and sunday 9-9.
let's work something out around all that. god, work takes over, doesn't it?

Re: it's cool

[stephanie_grace]

what if we meet for lunch/a few drinks saturday afternoon before you have work?