i wish i could just get over it ( Read more... )

have you ever sat around and realized exactly how pathetic you are? well thats what i'm doing now. fuck christmas. fuck people. fuck life. fuck kalamazoo. fuck this whole damn world. fuck the six page letter i just wrote. fuck all the money i spent today to buy presents for a boyfriend that won't even do what he says he. fuck me for being stupid ( Read more... )

so i'm too angry to come up with my own words to say, so heres this

This is the moment that you know
That you told her that you loved her but you don't.
You touch her skin and then you think
That she is beautiful but she don't mean a thing to me.
Yeah, she is beautiful but she don't mean a thing to me.

I spent two weeks in Silverlake
The ( Read more... )

so i get it. i'm a complete mess. i make small things huge problems. i'm not very understanding. i tend to not forgive things, mainly because of past problems i've had with boys. jon is a great guy and i know he's trying just as hard as i am. he's a good person, and i'm so happy to have him. so i'm sorry if i make him look like an evil man, because ( Read more... )

so i just got off the phone with jon. i'm fucking done. i need my fucking life back. i need to not have to worry if what i do is going to piss him off. i've tried everything to make things work with him, and then i get treated like this all of the time. i've become so fucking self-destructive in these past few months and its scary. i don't want to ( Read more... )

so i'm getting more and more sad as the day goes on. i'm starting to really doubt things with jon. i don't think i can do this to myself anymore. i can't stand to sit around all depressed because my boyfriend makes me feel like shit. i can't end up crying every other day because he gets drunk and says really mean things to me. i don't even feel ( Read more... )

there are seriously no words to describe how mad i am at jon right now. he is such a prick when he gets drunk and its really not fair. if i said the things to him that he says to me, he would never speak to me again. but its supposed to be okay because after he sobers up a bit or sleeps or starts to feel guilty - he will then apologize and i'm ( Read more... )

so... i can't sleep at all... i'm not even the slightest bit sleepy. this is awful. we have to get up all early and drive to detroit and drink all day, not to mention i have to go talk to this guy about a job before all of that. so i'm going to be sleepy all day probably. and to make things worse, jon snores so f-ing loud! he is driving me insane ( Read more... )

ah i have decided that booze makes people insane... i adore jon, but sometimes i just want to punch him in his stupid head. he fucking gets all drunk and starts fights... i do the same thing, i know he gets just as mad at me. its just that i care about him so much that i really hate it when we don't get along. blah what the fuck ever ( Read more... )

so this is just fucked up ( Read more... )