ok havent updated in forever. but. lately things have been awesome. and yea certain things have gone bad but ive been finding myself not to really care about them i mean its almost summertime and i just dont care. haha but i kinda made a better friend and shes super awesome. we talk a loooot. haha and idk i hope we hangout sometime and have fun! ( Read more... )

well my life has basically sucked... i feel like i just lost everything... i really just dont want to go to school anymore... i dont want to see people either. i feel so ashamed and mad and sad and angry and stressed.i havent been doing any homework.. and im too lazy to do anything.

me and my mom have been fighting non stop lately...
i dont wanna talk about it here.
i do not know the cause.
im trying to figure it out..
i guess in the process it means i have to lose people
that once meant a lot to me.
but if youre willing to just leave me- i will too.
im finally to the point where i dont give two shits anymore.
im gonna live for me ( Read more... )

don't go looking for love; let it find you because
that's why it's called falling; you dont mean to....
y o u j u s t d o

ok im very very sick. im on more medicine. the doctors will not tell me what is wrong with me. but.. i feel like im gonna like burst with all my sickness. plus this sickness plus other things on top have been stressing me out ( Read more... )

oook. today was whatever. i went to school and yea. it was school.... haha. then i went to peppermints with some girls then to avon inn to apply or whatever.. then we went and visited stephen csapo=) @ work. haha it was cool i got ice creammm. =)))). it was yummy and it got in ym hair. then i went to the baseball game and it was boring. i then saw ( Read more... )

today was good. idk why but it was. i looked rly nice. haha ok. but i walked halfway home in the rain and then britt and matt picked me up in matt's new mustang! WOO! totally get to ride in that thing all the time. <3 but then i got home and sat online for a bit then my mom told me my computer was here so i asked if it could be in my room she said ( Read more... )

today i was soO happy. first i was having a really pretty day which made me smile =]. and also no one pissed me off. i feel so much happier now that ive talked about my problem. wow. i feel GREAT! from now on, im gonna be pretty everyday- it motivates me to feel happy, and be happy about who i am. =] =] =]

long update later, ive got a lot on my mind. . .be ready.

ok i think im just about ready to kill something. not rly but im so sick of everything. liek i just want everyone to get out of my life. i hate just about everything at this point in time. i rly just wanna move and not see anyone ever again. liek of course i wanna see SOMEE of my friends still but u get it. i just feel so drained and lately all ive ( Read more... )

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