Someone, and u know who u r... is on my mind. When I sleep, take a shower, watch t.v., walk, talk, dream. Always. I miss them sooo much. I know that would be only stating the obvious. But I have to to get it off of my chest. I really wish there was something I could do to get things to change. I don't know how to get back to the way things used to ( Read more... )

Ok. Well, since I left for Florida, Drews dad got re-married, my friend Aaron had her baby yesterday, and my sister told me today that she is getting married on Friday. So... there is to catchin up ( Read more... )

Sometimes there's nothing to feel ( Read more... )

Well, I feel like shit. I am burned all to hell. I am drinkin some bicardi and some malibu, so it isn't that bad X) This trip would have been so much better if I had Pol here. I know we aren't really gettin along that well, but I still would be more happy just knowing he was here ( Read more... )

I guess I like it when we play ( Read more... )

I really wish at this point in time that my life would just end. I don't enjoy life in any way. I only have twice, and now those two people are gone. Forever. What's the point in hurting all of the time? Because it is gettin a little old to me. And a little hard to deal with and put up with everyday. THe feelings we can never face are here and it ( Read more... )

I get it. I fucked up. I don't know what I did, but it ubdoubtedly made me the worst fuckin person in the world. I mean, what good are feelings anyway? And who really did I trust when mine was lost from someone I cared about... that didn't want to spend 5 minutes a day with me. I mean, I heard this person had another fuckin "friend". Not that it ( Read more... )

I hope that all the fuckers that have ever done me wrong and not even tried to take blame regret it in the end and feel the pain that they have given me in ten fold ( Read more... )

Today Pol has been on my mind alot. I really do miss him. I guess I will just have to get used to it. I went today and got some clothes for Florida. I am happy to be gone, but I will miss everything here. I just have so much on my mind ( Read more... )

I don't really know what to do right now. I have like 3 guys that like me, but I am so not ready to move on. I mean, I have been hangin out with them, but like friends. I am not willing to even make baby steps toward any relationship right now. I miss Pol so bad. I went to his house today with Tara, and I sat in the car the whole time. I got a call ( Read more... )