So i thought this weekend was going to blow several ape balls but it didn't. I got to hang out with a friend from college and we talked all about his adventures to Russia and his new job and it made me think, "wow i can't wait to travel and talk to Chris about his adventures in the military ( Read more... )

Sorry LJ its me with another sad song. Still missing chris like crazy, didn't really cry much today so thats a plus. Bought a new book, murder mystery called "the apprentice" should be good. I went to the liquor store and got lil bottles of bacardi rum...yes its sad i drink alone but wtf else is there to do. no one wants to fuckin hang out.

Saw my dad today....so sad....ugh i just can't believe this. poor man. im pretty much sitting alone tearing up and hating life. yep. night

I am beyond stressed LJ. My husband is gone for 8 1/2 weeks, my job is becoming mentally numbing, and my friends think their lives and problems are obviously the most important things in the world. I listen to people bitch and moan all the time, you think for once they would stop for 2 seconds and ask maybe how i am? its ridiculous. Also im ( Read more... )

Chris left for his basic training today and im feeling like shit. all alone here with nothing to do and barely anyone to talk to. Its pretty amazing how i listen to peoples retarded problems all the time but when i need shit and someone to talk to they just wanna talk about themselves. this is so fuckin gay i wish i could just be with him.

I am a fraud, I am a liar ( Read more... )

Gosh i really hate this small town bull shit sometimes. We moved to a new place and everything was going good till one night after a fire and dumped some ashes in a field then our landlord got all pissy. apparently he found a bottle in there. BUT i know for a fact i put the bottle in front of the fire and never threw it into the field. Ashes get ( Read more... )

Ok kinda feeling upset right now. i hate lending my friends things because i never seem to get them back. I lent my friend cara a dress about like 5 months ago lol and i lent her another outfit in like, the 10th grade lol. and still havent gotten ne of it back. I keep trying to get it back and she's always busy. Recently, she posted a pic of ( Read more... )

Feeling a lil annoyed/depressed as of late. I mean I'm super happy to be out of my old apartment and in a new house with my husband, but my old landlord is making it unbearable. He wants me to pay him this months rent because i only gave him 20 days notice. He doesn't seem that hard up for money idk why he needs to be a lil shit. my new landlord ( Read more... )

im so beyond pissed off. its like i dont even have friends anymore. i go to lunch with people i believe to be my friends and then they turn around and go off to a fair and dont even contact me. they must have known they were going. then chris gets a random text saying if he needs a ride to the fair to call her. well chris has been driving forever ( Read more... )