Max i called you at ten and u didn't answer and i am really frightened for you please forgive me on everything i have ever done to you. I hurt you and saying that i am sorry doesn't count for much but i am and having to deal with all of my problems right now is bad. One of my good friends who is like a brother to me got put in jail today and that ( Read more... )

I don't know exactly what I have done but it's not good. I have hurt Max so terribly that in his live journal he writes about how he is saying good bye to all his friends. And the way I took it was that Max is going to kill himself. I am so sorry Max I never meant to hurt you the way that I did you mean so much to me please don't do it. I would be ( Read more... )

I returned back to today from my long journey. I hope everyone missed me. I was happy and excited and ready to just be me again. I thought I was ready but I wasn't I came home and went to bed and when I woke up I knew that I needed to go to the library so I had to get some gas. Well, I walked out and Shawn was over at my neighbors house and I waved ( Read more... )

Max I thought you understood me wanting to have time on my own. You said you did so please respect my wish. I miss you a bunch and I am not over you yet. It might seem that I am over you but I am not and I just want to pretend to be over you. I will be gone for a while but I will continue to update my journal and telling you over the internet how I ( Read more... )

All my friends my time has come to leave you. And depart from this great Orlando city. All my friends you have been great friends to me for the past 16 years of my life. I will miss you all very much. Whatever problems I have caused you please forgive me now because I will not be talking to you all for a while. Please don't fill any sadness for me ( Read more... )

It is so not fair my parents control my life and they treat me like a child. They will not let me drive my truck that they "gave" me when I want to. Or where I want to or when its not fair ( Read more... )

This weekend was so great. Because on Friday Max came back from Mexico and we talked on the phone till 4 o'clock in the morning. I never really wanted to get off the phone but I was about to fall asleep so we had to. Then later that night we went to the movies and he asked me out. I am so comfortable with him. I can tell him anything and everything ( Read more... )

Four days left before I get to see Max. I am so excited about that because I miss him so much. I write about Max everyday so people please don't think that I am obsessed with him or anything but its because I miss him so much. When he does get back I wonder if other friends are going to tell him about how I write about him in my journal if they do ( Read more... )

Another day passes by and a bunch of my friends are away in Mexico. Which is great for them but I am so sad because I miss one person in particular so much. Max. I never thought that I would miss someone so much but I do and its so crazy that I can't talk to him. It really sadness me. It totally sucks because he called me from like the airports and ( Read more... )

In a way this is my first entry but really its my second. I wrote once the first day I stared my live journal and left it alone for a long while. Well, now its summer and I will be going into my eleventh year of school which is exciting but also sad. I am ready in a way to move on with my life but in the same instance I am so not prepared. Life ( Read more... )