I think I may have confused "you only live once so make it the best life you can" with "you only live once so make every quick and un-thought-thru decision you can". I am so confused now and I am not happy and I feel like I did when Nick got back from London ( Read more... )

So had a terrific day of work. I worked with awesome people barely ate/drank and kept busy. SWEETTTTT ( Read more... )

I am in a relationship. I am in a relationship. I am in a relationship. Shit. I mean. No. This is a good thing. But I see why Nick wanted to take things slow. Damn my libido. Its kinda this awkward (not between him and i cuase its impossible for things to be awkward with us. there i used US in a sentance describing Nick and I becuase NOW we are an ( Read more... )

So about that whole NOT getting back with Nick thing. I failed miserably ( Read more... )

nick texted for me to come over tommorrow ( Read more... )

Summer is nearing its end. It is sad and it is true. I mean, technically it doesnt end till like Sept 21 or 22 and i dont even start classes till sept 28 or 29. But it is coming to a close. Good friends have gone back to college, the days are shorter, the beaches slightly more empty. And the vacation I have dreamed of for the past 6 years is going ( Read more... )

Kelly is amazing. here is a brief (cause im tired) synopsis of our day ( Read more... )

just talked to nick online. the bastard had to go and say if i wanted to fool around with him he wouldnt stop me. well i do but i wont or at least i will try not to. Do I want him back? mmmm not sure. oi he makes me so confused as to what i want. i want to hang out with him more often i know that. maybe if i see him more often i can figure out ( Read more... )

Today was ok. It was not phenominal nor was it bad. It was just a day. I slept in till 11 AM, watched Greys Anatomy till 2. Went to see if my belly button ring was infected at Slave to the Needle where the guy said he didn't think so. It looks like my guts are coming out of my belly button piercing. Ok sorry for the bad visual but its disgusting. i ( Read more... )

Do you ever wake up with that really unsetteled feeling in the pit of your stomach? Like as though something is wrong, something in your world is not quite right, but your not sure what? Thats how I woke up this morning. I havn't really woken up with a really sever unsettled feeling since the day after the first time i saw nick since we broke up. ( Read more... )