i love him

but i can never say it..

FIVE MORE DAYS ( Read more... )

i looove this, haha we had to write free verses in english class and i was proud of how mine turned out..

the noisy love partied soft
as an agry acoustic rhymed
within the panicked soul
beneath the mellowed fame
the band's heart through the
fights and money rhythm
away onto the music's guitar heart
and through the loud family
concert melody

haha my journal entries are so lame.

lol.

this is for you partner ;-)

i see that boy too much, just go away...go to freaking west virginia. i hate to see him all the time and to see how differently he acts now..pisses me off. and i hate how the only time i update this damn thing is when i'm pissed off about that dumb kid when i shouldn't even be caring b.c it's been over for so damn long, it just sucks to have to see ( Read more... )

It's upsetting how a person can allow certain people completely change the way he is when the one person who loves him the most can't even make him change his shirt.

:-/

I wasn't ready ( Read more... )

yeah it's over
you can bet in mid October
I will stil be ranting
'bout most early May
Yeah he's a winner
He's a goddamn sinner
While he dines
I'm on the wrong side of the day
And I said
"I don't understand why I'm fumbling after."
You're the reason I cannot forget this season...

It's too much
I want to forget
These tears are leading me
To a drowning of torture

I'm too weak
My strength is swelling
This sorrow is overflowing me
Into a misery of devastation

Take me away
Hold me
We can last forever
And make it our own dreamer's fantasy

god fuck this fuck him i didn't want to end like this this is fucking ridiculous i'm not okay i'm so far from it i fucking miss him..why do i miss him if i tried so goddamn hard for him and this is what i get..this is what i fucking get..god fuck you seriously...i feel like my best friend just reached inside of me and tore my heart out and just ( Read more... )