i seriously fucking hate everyone...im sick and tired of everyones bullshit...i cant take anymore of this...im gonna go insane and go on a rampage...i need some fucking xanax...thats my only real friend...

fuck you ....

i hate being bored all the time...i hate being lonely...i hate not having 2 cents to my name..i hate that its so hard to find a job with good health insurance so i can get my back fixed...ive said it before and ill say it again...i just wanna sleep for a couple years...

Ive said it before and I'll say it again

IHML....

Ive been having a weird rush of memories...I really miss the apartment days....

if I was one of the X-MEN, my mutant power would be the ability to fall asleep whenver I wanted....

....and having metal claws would be sweet too....

all i can think about is how much my settlement might be...and i know thats not good..because im building myself up for dissapointment....honestly i just want enough to get caught up on my bills and be able to move back outta my parents house...other then that....im lonely and am about to quit asian too....i need a new job...

im never happy...everyone sucks but a few...and i better get a lot of money...because if not....well thats another story........

I think ive gotten use to asian too....thats all i fucking do anymore is work ....my refrigerater is full of asian food...im over it....at least ill get a good paycheck...oh yea and i had a dream last night that a skinny nerdy black 9th grader was getting beat up by a fat black 12th grader and outta no where the nerdy kid rips off the other kids ( Read more... )

im tired...
i feel sick...
not looking forward to work 55 hour weeks...
alone once again...

i feel blank inside...not sad, not mad, i just dont feel anything...ive fucked myself up for too long...a lot of shit needs to change...