I deleted what feels like almost everyone from this journal's friends' list, and what actually is everyone I know in person. I promise you it's not because I'm a hater. It's because I'm becoming way too openly insane and depressed in here and I feel like an asshole all the time because of it. It's because it's time to grow up. It's because the ( Read more... )

Screw boys and friends and calories and other classes and parents and things and money and jobs. This is all I need.

My conferance with Nathan for my second story was today. It was almost an hour long, and was probably one of the top five almost-hours of my life in the past month. We talked like equals, two people that understand the same ( Read more... )

I know things are important when they make my heart kick, when my fingertips sweat even though my hands are dry, when I chew the insides of my cheeks until I taste metal.
When I was little I would sharpen pencils and take all of the lead powder and smear it where my parents had grabbed me in frustrastion, I would show it to them and say they ( Read more... )

it got above seventy degrees this weekend
today it snowed
my disposition is nebraska-bred
but I'm so happy here. Seriously. I'm just so happy with myself.

( I am the yellow rose, growing near the ground, waiting to climb something. )

Eva (7:38:57 PM): you know what... forget this whole thing... lets just become nuns.... or maybe have a "boston marriage"
Me (7:39:09 PM): OH MAN I"LL TOTALLY BOSTON MARRY YOU
Cluck1000 (7:40:03 PM): you'll make me the best sandwhiches
themartyrist (7:40:25 PM): you betcha... and you can update my ipod
Cluck1000 (7:40:47 PM): I can't wait
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At home drink a lot of coffee. At Howard Johnson's order the cole slaw. Consider how it looks like the soggy confetti of a map: where you've been, where you're going--"You Are Here," says the red star on the back of the menu.
Occasionally a date with a face blank as a sheet of paper asks you whether writers often become discouraged. Say that ( Read more... )

What the heck happened to lipstikeskimoes?

TEN Random Things About Me ( Read more... )