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A New Day
I've been talking to this girl, well the term girl should most definatly not apply to her. A lady would be the correct term. She's beautiful, smart, funny and really sweet. Just the painful truth about not being able to be with her at this point in my life drags a streak across my heart. She lives in Vancouver. Now, this girl has a name. Unqiue and ( Read more... ) -
Awake but asleep inside.
Everything is over between Nicole and I. I no longer am seeing her, talking to her. But deep down inside I feel like she still loves me and is to scared to dwell. To forget me. I asked for my stuff back but she said no, maybe she wants to remember me. Remember the good that we had ( Read more... ) -
Another miserable post..
I saw Nicole last night. I dropped off her Vice City. She wanted a hug, and yet I couldn't bring myself to hug her. If I were to hug her, I would never let go. I would cry and hold. No way in hell would I let go of her. You'd have to cut my arms off to have gotten me to let go ( Read more... ) -
Scared
I don't know if I can take this...I don't got a girl on valentines day. And ontop of that, I won't have a girl on my birthday. This hurts so fucking much........ -
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Nicole, this song makes me thing of you. Makes me think of myself and our situation. I'm so unbelieveably confused. And I think your right, we need time apart so we can face our problems ( Read more... ) -
Day 1....
How do people survive without the one they love os much. How do you survive where not even an infant can survive? Love keeps us going through life. It gives us strength. It may cause problems but they end and get stronger. The victioms of the problem become stronger then ever ( Read more... ) -
Dead...
I give up with this stupid live journal. Everything I write here, people take it the wrong way. I feel dead inside and I am fucking up my life more and more when I use this shit. I feel so dead inside, it's not funny. It hurts, I can't breathe. I've been an asshole all my life and I can't.....gah nicole is right to hate me. -
Feelings...
I feel lost and confused....and now, I think more then ever that Nicole is actually thinking of leaving me for good. Someone help me, please. I can't lose her. I don't know what to do. -.- I know I will die with out her. I am so scared. -
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NICOLE YOU ARE THE MOST BEAUTIFUL GIRL IN THE ENTIRE WORLD!
THE PEOPLE WHO DO NOT SEE IT ARE MORONS!
YOUR MIND, YOUR HEART, YOUR PSHYSICAL APPERANCE!
ALL SO FUCKING BEAUTIFUL!! I CAN'T LOSE YOU!
NEVER LOSE A GIRL LIKE YOU! I FUCKED UP AND I WANT TO MAKE IT BETTER!
HEAL THINGS OVER! I AM DOING MY BEST! I LOVE YOU SO GAWD DAMN FUCKING MUCH!!
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I owe alot to you.....
Nicole, I love you sooo fucking much. I am working myself in overdrive. I'm feel less hurt right now. Alot less hurt but I still feel some pain. Still scared of losing you. I found the source of my problem and I am trying to fix it down inside myself. I love you so much babe. Don't ever forget that ( Read more... )