i'm afraid of my friends not getting what they want. i'm afraid that things just dont' work out. i'm afraid of what i'm capable of. i'm afraid of the ways i consume, and the effects it has on the world around me. i'm afraid of this no point of reference medium i'm afraid that i'm not doing enough. i'm afraid of you, and why we have so much but do nothing with it. i'm afraid of never having enough space, i'm afraid that's it's really just absurd. i'm afraid of my point of reference won't be enough.
actually to be honest, these are just insecurities and anxieties, i don't know that i'm afraid of anything but bald guys in bombers, or larks smile and head nod right before it happens, or of my feelings for jessica and how boundless they always feel.
maybe i should just be counting my blessings...........
I am loathe to admit it but I believe I have gotten "Xenophobic" over the recent year or maybe that is the usual for girls who break up with boys who have been real jerks :}
Also I think perhaps I have also gained a little bit of a fear of high rises and sky-scrapers from my years in Toronto but I don't see that here. However "Pantophobia" seems like it would be pretty troublesome.
Right now I think I fear people's lies more than anything else. Those are what has brought me the most harm I believe.And fear of emotions is the most pleasant fear there is for there are deep feelings TO fear at least, which is a comfort, at least this is my opinion. In the past I would have said this is a fear I wished for because it means you have someone to love but now I can say this fear of feelings is something I can understand too well. Your Jessica is a lucky lady.
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i'm afraid that things just dont' work out.
i'm afraid of what i'm capable of.
i'm afraid of the ways i consume, and the effects it has on the world around me.
i'm afraid of this no point of reference medium
i'm afraid that i'm not doing enough.
i'm afraid of you, and why we have so much but do nothing with it.
i'm afraid of never having enough space,
i'm afraid that's it's really just absurd.
i'm afraid of my point of reference won't be enough.
actually to be honest, these are just insecurities and anxieties, i don't know that i'm afraid of anything but bald guys in bombers, or larks smile and head nod right before it happens, or of my feelings for jessica and how boundless they always feel.
maybe i should just be counting my blessings...........
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and sometimes i'm bald, though currently i'm just a shaggy bastard
i'm afraid of the great mole rat.
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Also I think perhaps I have also gained a little bit of a fear of high rises and sky-scrapers from my years in Toronto but I don't see that here. However "Pantophobia" seems like it would be pretty troublesome.
Right now I think I fear people's lies more than anything else. Those are what has brought me the most harm I believe.And fear of emotions is the most pleasant fear there is for there are deep feelings TO fear at least, which is a comfort, at least this is my opinion. In the past I would have said this is a fear I wished for because it means you have someone to love but now I can say this fear of feelings is something I can understand too well. Your Jessica is a lucky lady.
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