somedays you wake up and you realise something is about to change, you can feel it. its in the weather, its in your aching muscles, your stomache, and then it happens. i don't know what to do...

today was a good day, everything about today. man, life is so weird right now, i think i like it but sometimes i feel too confined. like i have a decent job, but i just want to leave. i like my house, but sometimes i don't want to go home. i want to go somewhere else.

i have been deathly ill for like 3 going on 4 days now, or i guess it feels that way. man and i had to work 3 of those 4 days. i can finally relax and yet i can't relax... i feel like time has stopped... or somehow passed me by. why have all the clocks stopped...? who stopped the clocks? clocks clocks why did you stop? everything has rushed past me ( Read more... )

you ever think things will really change, i mean something catastrophic... will it happen in our lifetime? just a thought, its been going through my mind. i'm so caught up in my thoughts lately, spacey and shit. the music is good, the drugs always right, the moment, a still life, and i'm not leaving. but i'm not really there,you know like there ( Read more... )

what are you doing tuesday...? oh i know, you're going to mcfaddens for the dead alives and a fashion show. i am going to be one of erin supris models and it is going to be loads of fun... it starts at 7pm.

i can't sleep, i feel very restless- theres all this pent up something within me. actually its starting to scare me. i guess another part is very lonely, like i need to feel like i am understood. i don't know i guess i have to feel loved and wanted to fall asleep, that must sound so selfish... like your touching my back because you really want to ( Read more... )

sometimes i really hate change, the kind that you can't control. i really could live without the subtle way people get used to things. i can't live in a box... when the magic is gone. somethings may suck up your life, but don't let this. this tiny triviality. my words may sound jumbled, but theres no easy way to explain this. almost twenty-one it ( Read more... )

it has been a really long time since i have posted due to the fact i never visit coffee shops anymore... so life is strange right now, i find myself back in shoe sales once again, (i guess its inevitable) this time is a little different though. i'm the assistant manager and i make a lot more money... the moneys good but my bills outnumber my income ( Read more... )

why does everything thats good suddenly go bad sometimes... when it happens i never know what to do with myself. i shake uncontrollably. all i can do is think. i can't function properly in society. things always seem right at the time, and later on i always question my judgement. and i can't write.

i am coping with some facts that have been killing me for about the last three yrs of my life ( Read more... )