I'm tired of putting on the brave, happy, smiling face. But I'm afraid that if I don't then everyone else will fall apart. I can't keep it all together for much longer.

Not to steal the spotlight, or overshadow your stuff in any way, but your advice doesn't exactly make the problem go away, if anything it's only confirming it. TMI, gross, I know, but your advice ( Read more... )

I realized something tonight. I can't look most people in the eye. I can count on one hand the number of people I feel comfortable doing this with. What does that say about me? Does it say that I'm untrustworthy? Does it say that I'm shy? Or is it really saying that the stuff I'm blabbering on about doesn't hold a candle to what I'm really thinking ( Read more... )

I have been on the verge of tears for weeks now. No particular reason, I just have been. I'm not even that stressed about school. I should be, but I'm not. I just feel like if I could just cry really hard and get whatever it is out, I would feel so much better. But I can't seem to do that. Gah. I'm so frustrated with myself. I'm only allowed to be ( Read more... )

I feel kinda lost right now. I don't really feel like I know who I am anymore. I guess I thought I knew myself in high school. I knew what people thought about me, and I knew what I thought about me. I don't know that anymore. College is supposed to be about finding yourself, right? Do you have to lose yourself first? That seems stupid. I came into ( Read more... )

I'm really glad we talked. finally. but I'm really scared it was a one time deal, and things'll just go back to the way they were. I hope I'm wrong. I've waited a long time for this ( Read more... )

Why do I only post on LJ when I'm upset? And why does it seem like I'm upset all the time? It's like I'm in a constant state of PMS. And why did you make things so complicated? They were ok. Maybe not great, but at least we had found a steady spot. Then you had to go and mix everything up. And why didn't I say how I actually felt at the time? It's ( Read more... )

It's been 65 weeks since I've updated LJ. It's kinda weird being back. I thought I had grown past the point where I needed to whine, complain, and angst it out on the internet. Guess I was wrong. Or maybe I'll never grow out of that feeling. The feeling of saying something raw and honest and setting it free in the world. Or maybe it's the idea of ( Read more... )

So The Actor's Nightmare went really well last night! I am so proud of everyone. The audience thought it was hilarious. (I even heard people saying it was funnier than The Nerd.) If you are lame and didn't see it last night, come see it tonight or Saturday at 7. It's only $5, cheaper than a movie.

I am now officially a licensed driver. Look out Lawrenceville!