my new goals in life:
must get dream car
must get hot and skinny
must become raging acholic
must make men suffer
must make gus suffer

i think my relationship is falling apart and i think that i would rather leave him now then later. i dont know? it seems sometimes that its not working for me at all and everything is his way, but then he tries and later it seems like its not enough. and then it goes away and hes there for me,but in my heart i know i need more.

so i finally got around to using my new toy. it was amazing last night all alone just me and purple penis friend from my secret hiding place. the way it moves and turns me on you would not believe. lets just say that the question of having a man came to my mind and thought if it could substitute him in one way to make up for the other things, but ( Read more... )

yeah i got a new friend and his name is purple buddy for down below. yes i bought a dilldow and i still havent used it yet but its going to be soooo good when i do. its squishy and it bends and its water proof.

yeah i dont really have anything to write about. last night i got really stoned and watched movies with daniel. she ended up passing out during the movie on the floor so i slipt out quietly and went home and passed out as well. work sucks.

like that really means anything. why is it when you think to the future you sometimes think you wont be there? is it because we only live day by day ( Read more... )

i dont get to move into the house of my dreams and now gus and me have to find a tiny apartment to move into which will be very exspensive. i'm so anger. why do people fucking suck ( Read more... )

the day that everyone gets up early to open presents and then eat tons of food and getting wasted with your family, for others its getting wasted because of your family. instead i'm going to kick back and get drunk and watch old christmas movies ( Read more... )

i guess since laylas going to her dads for christmas im just going to have x-mas at my house. havent really decided whos all going. just let me know if you want to come. i going to get one of those little trees that you can plant after x-mas, and i still have some x-mas shopping to do but its not much. i just want to have a good x-mas this year and ( Read more... )

ive been working so much that it seems like im working all the time and i feel trap. i wish i had more time. its funny, when im not working i wish i had something to do, but then when i am working im exsuasted and tired of working. its like i can never win with life.

win-tey