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[stippystappy]

So I am in the same mood as I have been the last few days. Still feel really shit and hate myself. I am currently sitting at home alone listening to Symphony no 5 in C sharp minor by Gustav Mahler, because nobody else is out tonight. Things have been going weirdly around here. I start to wonder if I am feeling like this for attention, or

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[moononastick]

Olly's clearly let you down. He hasn't been who you need him to be. Maybe, in time, he will realise that you gave him that "chat" for his own good and things will be repaired. But for now you should probably accept that he is going to be a weener and find some peace with that. What I mean is, don't expect anything from him, and you can't be disappointed.
It's okay to feel like it's unfair that he's getting support when you're not. But Sam, you really HAVE had support. Look at Amy, for a start. The thing you need to bear in mind is that Olly's friends are doing what Olly should have done for you - they have stuck by him even though he made stupid mistakes and fucked up. I'm not saying you made mistakes too, but just trying to explain why they are doing what they are doing. You needn't take it personally.
Maybe take some time out from Olly at the moment.

[stippystappy]

I know Olly has been a complete asshole lately. He has been so self centered its unbelievable. Amy said that she thinks Olly has been like that because he's about to end it with Hannah, he doesnt want to see what effect breaking up has had on the other person. He is talking to kirsty because she broke up with me, so she was in the same position as olly is now, and if he sees how much it has hurt me, he's gonna feel even more guilty for breaking it off with her. Yeah, thank you jessica. I've just been down lately, and I hate it because I have no reason to. Amy reckons from the sound of it, although I am getting over Kirsty, it feels like a big part of me is missing, which is probably why I am depressed. I dont know, but its just been getting me down a lot. And I hate it because theres not really a reason.
Hope you are alright Jessica,
Been thinking of you
xx