driving to work i need divine intervention. im ducking into corners dashing into streets slate run im on the run to work. looking at the son stabbing its rays through the clouded sky its another day im alive and breathing drinking from the cup of last evening. sitting at my desk surrounded by drones of my co-workers sighs and sorrows circling the ( Read more... )

is skimming through my mind im a soldier of fortune who is broke with no way to pay bills. to many hard luck love losers looking to take my day or still my thunder. im just a journeymen loving to much to change my mind. i just want to be happy and smile again. stay on top for awhile again. i dont know your name but i know we have met your some ( Read more... )

amber made me feel good about everything lately. i love having someone know something bother me or having someone know what im thinking about new people or situations. its like 05 but different like no arguments or craziness. i love it. i like amber not falling apart at every little thing. her accepting the way the world is and not going to pieces ( Read more... )

facebook is the devil sometimes. when people send you 12 apps an hour it gets old fast. ive been spending the last few days at ambers hanging out while she is sick. i love her and want her to be ok so i hangout and watch over her. she really doesnt even seem that bad anymore its like nothing before on the first day she was a crying swollen painful ( Read more... )

i think today will be a great day. and im supposed to hang with my friend whitney later who i never see then i think amber is coming over to stay the night. and im happy very content with everything. im calm and my life is very laid back right now. im trying not to think about the show thing honestly. i want it very badly but im not gonna kill ( Read more... )

its just one of those days... im all worried about work, that try out, and everything else. i just want a breather, and that is exactly what next tuesday will be. im gonna get my mind right and focus. bye

fow now.

yeah well now i have to film a video and do a crazy background check for the show. its like 30 pages i will have some sort of crazy private eye looking into my life making sure im me. this will be crazy. im trying not to get excited until its a sure thing but everyone around me is excited and they are making me feel it to. i love it and i hope it ( Read more... )

back to work today. yesterday was a great day for me and im glad i get a chance to do this tom. anyways yesterday me and amber hungout most of the day she had to work alot but regardless it was fun. we had great convos and i felt like we are really reconnecting. im super nervous and stressed. apparently tom i also have to testify for someone ive ( Read more... )

i was called in for a callback for the biggest loser i guess i made a good impression. i hope i do well on weds. thanks for all the supports even you aaron for the not so nice support. i hope i do well. its all about losing weight and getting the help i need. im not scared im nervouse they wont like me. its ok though. ill be fine. but its all my ( Read more... )

so im gonna try out for the biggest loser tomorrow. wosh me luck ive never seen the show. but i want to try out and see what i can do. i want to lose weight. and i would like to win the money. it should be fun and i like to meet people and i want the challenge. wish me luck

bye

luck