i had to leave ian twodays ago, i havent leftmy room except for his calls. i just keep thinking that this isnt life, tis isnt at all howi was supposed tobeliving, im a hollow shell of mself without him around. i started crying at approximately 7:30 am on wednesday morning, i cried solid until 10:15 when i actually got on the fucking bus, i dont ( Read more... )

im in richmond with ian, hooray!!!! if i missed calls recently im sorry, my phone got misplaced at the beach and i havent got it back yet but i will calll you all as soon as i do. headed to washington tommorow, cant wait, oh, must go, ian is standing in the doorway without a shirt on! life eternally rocks my socks!

so i cant help updating every now and again, yeah ian u think this is stupid and shallow, whatever, you used to post, so you can go fuck yourself xanga man! on the happy side it is only 3 more days til i see the xanga man himself! yay!!!!! i have yet to figure out what im getting him for our six month anniversary, regardless of the fact that he " ( Read more... )

JULY:
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. ( Read more... )

here are some pictures of my life recently....


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everything is more than lovely with ian, only 10 days till i see him!!!! i will post pictures soon. love you all!!!

murhhhhhh, i want the old ian back, he is changed, and that hurts but i still love him just the same. i wish there was something i could do to bring him back, he doesnt seem at all happy anymore, especially not with me. i dont know what happened but id do anything to have him back now. i guess i did take what we had for granted (and god it kills me ( Read more... )

neverming, im not going to be at graduation (sorry lexi) i want to go, but ian wont be there, and i just hate to go and have him not there, he's the only one who's really kept in touch, anyway, ever heard of pete and pete, here is a song by Polaris that is ringing a little too true, sorry ive becoma a song post a holic. love u all.

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i take it all back, this love is not fleeting or weak, this love is between us two and im not going to doubt it again, because i love him and he is everything to me, which is why it hurt me so much that he hadnt called or written. i will see you all at graduation on friday, lovies!!!!

the way i feel about us right now ( Read more... )