It was night, or for the best of me, what I could tell was night.  When the sun wasn't at its highest intensity it'd just disappear and leave an ominous purple sky with harsh pavement grey clouds intermingled- I never cared to think about it but some nights you could see like there was massive city luminescence in the horizon that casted shadows ( Read more... )

I'm not exactly sure how this started, I only had 3 or 4 other people with me and we were going through a building, up through the stair well.  The lights were dim and it was also hard to navigate through the place, each door lead to open offices or in which case we found a floor that had been turned into a day care type facility.  I had only ( Read more... )

 Sometimes.. I feel like we are the forgotten.  A generation made to fend on our own, which ... I suppose is dangerous.  Given no direction.. no plan.  I had the thought last night while doing my drone work- "What's the purpose of working when its not towards a dream or purpose."  I-want-to-let-go
I-want-to-let-go.

The generation before me asks of me ( Read more... )

"And the world will look up and shout, "Save us!".  And I will whisper... No."

Simple is good, not everything needs to be explained.
A writing comes froms someone who understands their subject.  Without understanding, it simply could not exist, do I understand myself?

I don't have tomorrow off so it is today I will journal.  
I finally got around to telling my mom I need to go to the doctor. 
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I've been neglecting to talk to 98% of the people I know.  One would think that I prefer loneliness, and maybe I do-  I don't know.  I don't have a heart to pay attention ( Read more... )

Its dark, the fan is running, and Im almost done with my "sunday" night yet again.   I've moved from living room to my room, listlessly trying to figure out what it is that bothers me, I feel hungry yet I'm pretty sure I'm not- and I feel as if I really want to do something but there is nothing.  I'm sure its a form of depression.  I'm just ( Read more... )

My head hurts really bad tonight.  I sat on my living room floor with some of my drawing utensils infront of me while watching tv, but nothing seemed to come to mind, its almost worry some.  I ended up laying down,  tuning everything out- pulled my hood over my eyes, and tried to lie motionless as if time would stop passing because it didn't notice ( Read more... )

Its always the worse when you are so sad, so lost, that there are no words to help convey the matter.  It just leaves you to yourself feeling like there wont be anyone to come around for you.

I can't see it anymore.  Ever since I graduated from Highschool - 2003, life have has been this slippery muddy slope into a valley.  Much like the one mentioned in Psalms.  If i took the vow of "If you don't have anything nice to say, dont say it all." I think I would probably just take up the vow of silence.  I hate Michigan.  I hate Flint.  I ( Read more... )

So today during our family Christmas-Eve party,  my 5 year old neice showed me her loose tooth and I asked her  "are you excited to get money from the tooth fairy?" and she shook her head yes.  I then proceeded to tell her that the tooth fairy originally killed children by tearing the teeth out of their skulls when they slept but the demon was ( Read more... )