I wish I understood what triggers these death-defying moodswings. They always come along at the worst moment and drain the life energy out of me in their wake. I feel like I've been like this as long as I've existed... why I never feel like I can commit to any creative task with any degree of surety. I could have the wind burned out of my sails ( Read more... )

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FhMRXjGn0V0

...where our intrepid hero gets to be the douchebag that goes back to his old friends, at the end of a particularly demanding year-long relationship, and says "hey, yeah, I know I disappeared for a year... we're still cool, yeah? Yeah ( Read more... )

Sometimes life seems like it's far less about progress than it is cycles. I can't tell at the moment if they're widening or tightening. Perhaps spiral in shape.

BLERG.

My life feels like it's at this weird standstill.

Time, however, seems to be rushing by just fine.

I need to break up the routine a bit. Maybe I should go bowling. I dunno.

My brain is trying to kill me again. I need to write more.

It fucks me off that this still happens, but it does--douchebaggery abounds, apparently ( Read more... )

Politics fascinates me. Oftimes annoys me. These days I try not to get too excited about them one way or the other... it's fun, sometimes healthier, to step back a step and look at it as the continuation of the grand chess game that's been going on in this country for more than 200 years. Sure, I've got my personal policy passions and occasional ( Read more... )

The shooting at Fort Hood is really fucked up and tragic.

And I'm bracing for how the event is going to be twisted and politicized by members at both ends of the spectrum.