Ive Got Big Big Plans...I'm gonna tear this post up like I just got married...and the next part is the hardest ( Read more... )

ahhh! guess who was giving an interview on steve's untilted rock show when i switched the tv to fuse...thats right relient k! oO wow! that is the first time i have ever seen them have an interview on tv before! ahhh! i love them ( Read more... )

i thought i would metion that i actually had a great day. yes. i think i am moving on...slowly... but i am. and it sucks that some people that i care about dont seem to care about me... but the ones who do really have been showin' it! well im excited about this weekend. im going with donald over to school to watch erin's team in the championship. ( Read more... )

is it bad that i am listening to such a dirty song...lol. they have been playing starting line alot on fuse...
okay so ya i dont condone such things...i just have this song in my head...

( Bedroom Talk )

yay! i am really happy now! i didn't think anyone could be as nice to me. Wow...I feel exhausted now. I feel like someone died on one side but then again I feel happy about Donald. I feel like I lost the one person I tell everything to...he just dissapeared. I asked if he would call me cause I was happy about Donald and I wanted to tell him...I ( Read more... )

It's so funny that I have been listenin' to MXPX the past couple of weeks and then all this happend...I think these lyrics just go w/ how I feel with a few minor adjustments...

I’m
broken hearted, broken hearted for you

So don’t get me started on repairs

I know what you’re gonna do

You’ll break it again

I know I can’t win
You’ll just break my ( Read more... )

doesn't it feel great when your best friend doesn't care that he hurt you! i ( Read more... )

Friday--- Had my ineterview. sweet I think it went well...bad day at school. I was way too moody. I really wanted to cry all day. I snapped at people. I feel really dumb now. I ran out of one class crying. Geesh...I know...what a loser. Then I went out with Amanda. That made day awesome!!! We got lost...sweet! It made our night interesting...We ( Read more... )

You may be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment if
you do not trust enough.
Frank Crane
I need to apply that trust theory to my life. I think some of the worst things because I am so scared to get hurt or rejected. I sometimes I forget that those insecurities just push people away. WoW. I just feel so screwed up. I know ( Read more... )

so hmm. today was okay. i was happy. then i was sad. i felt lonely. it sucked. then i felt better. than i was tired. i woke up. i was happy. then i was tired/bored. then after school i was really mad. then i was frustrated. now i am okay. i talked to meghen. i feel better. i love my friends its just sometimes we have disagreements and sometimes don ( Read more... )