I hate cancer

so i am laying in my bed
drinking coffee
listening to taylor swift
and feeling like shit
a. because i went out last night
b. i didn't go to class today!

this is so gay.
everytime i listen to taylor swift
it reminds me of how i was
feeling like a year ago
all sad and shit over wallace

blah blah blah
 

i feel like an absolute mess.

end of story

 i figured this is 
something we would 
joke about with our
children and grandchildren
how silly mom and dad 
used to be.
i love you

i can't
i can't
i can't
i can't
love you anymore

now i'm back for the first since then
i'm standing on your street
and theres a letter left on your door step

(i'm right back to how i felt 3 years ago)

i give  up

fix yourself

i want to change.
i want to succeed.
i want to be better.
i want to stop drinking as much.
i want to quit smoking.
i want to be truly happy.
i want to feel good.
i want to be healthy.
i want you.

we are moving to our new apartment tomm.
excited/nervous/new
the 4th of july is coming up.
everyone knows that is my
day of depression.
so heres to getting totally shit ( Read more... )

its retarded how much I love this kid...

A cold heart will burst
If mistrusted first
And a calm heart will break
When given a shake
The cold heart will burst
If mistrusted first
And a calm heart will break
When given a shake

I am feeling pretty lost at the moment

And then

I wake up

With a headache

And lack of pictures from the night before

i miss that stupid ache

i feel pathetic for saying this

but i am still in love with this boy
is it unrealistic to say that i think i may still end up with him
no one has ever had a hold on my heart like him

I remember everything
The words we spoke on freezing South Street
And all those mornings watching you get ready for school
You combed your hair inside that mirror
The one you ( Read more... )