so i had a "fun" day at work today...tons of manual labor and an encounter with a babacue...feel like shit in more ways then one but i am not gonna give up...no way...her happiness will bring closure to all this even if its not with me thats all that matters to me...yes i love her that much...so even if she isnt with me her happiness will allow me ( Read more... )

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staying true to the light is hard when youve been cut off by darkness...

iam a fast as fuck runner...today no one could catch me...yah wats up...aside from that the day kinda blew chunks...but i realize that in the end ill have my time of happiness...i am just getting the shitty end now to make up for it...but still couldant it just come in balance? i guess not other wise i wouldant appreciate the good...well fuck it ( Read more... )

so last night i came home from work to find out that my friend from port huron jimmy allen was killed while he was on a convoy support mission in iraq. thats 3 times now that the war has hurt or taken someone from me. it seems that of late things are going horribly wrong...the tazer...my life in genral sucks right now...but then again i guess its a ( Read more... )

ever been emotionally kicked in the junk....yah lately thats how ive felt...i dunno anymore...i know how i feel and things are never going to be ok again...no matter how bad i pray...so iam doing the senseible thing and hangingout with a girl who i like should go well right? well i can only hope that this works out well cause i like sam a lot...i ( Read more... )

so today i let on 3 goals one game and a big 0 the next....yah iam a wall...talked to sam breifly which was nice. and went to the mall with my bro B hard...yah so things were pretty good today...now off to work out more.

matt out

love is odd but its there still

letting out the noise inside of me
every window pane is shattering
cutting out my words before i speak
this is how it feels to not beleive

You're giving me too many things Lately ( Read more... )

if i could change i would
take back the pain i would
retrace every wrong move i made i would
if i could stand up and take the blame i would
if i could take all the shame to the grave i would

if i could take it all back and fix things i would in a heartbeat...but its like a broken sword...waiting for a smith (god) to make amends...